2020-07-21 — Motivated

Hola, my wonderful peoples.

I’m  motivated. I’ve been tasting change lately, and I like it. I want more of it. I’ve cut pornography out of my life, and I don’t miss it. I don’t think about it. I don’t want it. I don’t crave it. I’m just… done with it. It’s like, meh.

And it feels so nice to be free of it.

I hate being a slave to anything. I want to be master over every part of my own life, not a slave to any one or any thing.

I’ve cut junk food back out of my life. I don’t crave it anymore. I don’t need it. Does it taste good. Sure. But I don’t need it. I’m free of it again. It’s just, meh.

And it feels so nice to be free of it.

I hate being a slave to anything. I want to be master over every part of my own life, not a slave to any one or any thing.

I’ve cut movies and TV and sports news out of my life again. Do I enjoy movies and the like, sure. But they’re such a trap for me, and I’m free of that media again. I haven’t longed for it. I haven’t wanted to turn to it. I don’t need it. I don’t miss it. I don’t want it. I’m free of it again. Free.

And it feels so nice to be free of it.

I hate being a slave to anything. I want to be master over every part of my own life, not a slave to any one or any thing.

I’ve cut swearing out of my life. I haven’t sworn in I don’t know how long. I’ve been able to hold my tongue even in very trying and frustrating situations–even when I’ve let myself get really angry. I haven’t turned to it. I don’t need to. I don’t want to. I don’t miss it. I’m finally free of it again.

And it feels so nice to be free of it.

I hate being a slave to anything. I want to be master over every part of my own life, not a slave to any one or any thing.

It’s time for more.

Fear. Nothing has had a more detrimental impact on my life, in my opinion, then fear. Nothing has held me back more. Nothing has brought me more pain. Nothing has caused me more damage than fear.

And I want to be free of it.

I hate being a slave to anything. I want to be master over every part of my own life, not a slave to any one or any thing.

Fear must go.

So that’s next on the list of things I’m going to begin tracking–when I recognize that I’m starting to fear, I’m gonna shut it down, and I’m gonna focus my energies and goals and faith and hope on what I can control, and I’m gonna let the rest… be up to God.

I’ve created a new project in my Projects menu and added my first post to it.

I’m the project (that probably doesn’t sound so great, but… whatever).

I’m gonna list out the things I fear, and along side them, I’m going to list what it is that I’m going to do to overcome the fear–what I’m going to focus my energies, what I’m going to choose to believe and do instead.

It’s time to let fear go. For good.

#1. I’m grateful not just to see the positive changes in my life but to feel the difference.

#2. I’m grateful that I was able to spend time with a buddy of mine today. He’s been super stressed, going through a lot of what I go through running a business. It’s hard. Very hard.

#3. I’m grateful to be motivated today, determined to move forward and become. 

#4. I’m grateful for the thunder I hear rumbling outside. Before I go to bed, I’m gonna soak in a little of one of my favorite shows this incredible planet puts on.

#5. I’m grateful to be back.

My lovelies, thank you for sharing in my journey. May we continue forward, loving, serving, and becoming.

Loves and hugs to you, and you, and you, and you, and you, and *you.*

Lift the World.

~ stephen