A lot changes in a week. I'm in a really bad place. I wasn't prepared to be so sick and be home and... I got discouraged/depressed super quickly, have barely left my room the entire week, relapsed in every addiction I have... And my spiritual re-re-awakening is... pretty much dead. It's kind of like a … Continue reading 2023-10-30 — Re… Death

Today was basically a repeat of yesterday. I still feel pretty awful. Today my ears are plugged up. Sore throat is raging. I'm tired. I went out and mowed the lawn for probably an hour and a half or so trying to be useful, but I just couldn't do the whole thing. Since it hasn't … Continue reading 2023-10-23 — DupliDay

I don't really have much to say today. I rolled out of bed at 7:30 into the front passenger seat so miserable that i just asked my mom if it was ok with her if we just got going. It might just be a memory thing, but I don't remember having a sore throat this … Continue reading 2023-10-22 — Raging Sore Throat

It was a little bit more of a rough night last night, sleep wise. I had a pretty good headache/migraine, and my nerves hated me, and I'm sick, so... it was fun. 🙃 There was a little yappy dog that periodically decided it wanted to make its presence known at various points through the night. … Continue reading 2023-10-21 — Driving, Driving, Driving

After waking up at the truck stop and realizing that I was pretty out of water, I drove around hot springs trying to find one of the grocery stores that we had been to the other night. I think I found one of the ones that we went to, and I went to buy water, … Continue reading 2023-10-20 — All in My Back?

I spent most of the day removing and replacing most of the boards that I had put on the concrete forms the day before. There were concerns that maybe the pressure of going over the top of the placement stakes might be pulling the forms out of alignment, and perhaps, that's why the forms were … Continue reading 2023-10-19 — Self Righteous

I'm not doing very well right now. I'm feeling small and stupid. And I'm pretty afraid right now. It might be a complete over reaction. It might not even be my fault at all, but Heather and Hans are supposed to have the footings poured for their house tomorrow, and I'm afraid that I've ruined … Continue reading 2023-10-18 — Feeling Small and Stupid

What does it feel like to have the spirit of God with me in its fullness? (I'm writing this post to help me focus and remember why I do the things that I do and why I choose not to do the things I choose not to do. There's a pretty significant amount of self-discipline … Continue reading 2023-10-18 — Everything That in Any Way… (Ponderings)

I rolled out of bed a bit earlier today than usual for this trip. It was 8 something, early ate something, I think. I rolled out of bed because, unlike usual, I had to go to the bathroom first thing in the morning instead of after eating breakfast. And, no, not the kind of bathroom … Continue reading 2023-10-17 — Rebar Floss

I ate breakfast in the van this morning, just called cereal, and then I hopped on the tractor and got going again moving road base from the road base pile to the upper parking lot pad. Back and forth and back and forth and back and forth. 🙃 Once again, I ate some sandwiches for … Continue reading 2023-10-16 — Round and Round