(written on the 29th, 3rd, and 5th from notes) Well, it was a rough one today. It was supposed to be Temple Tuesday, but that's not going to happen very well when I choose not to go to bed and instead choose to relapse. 😕 For whatever reason, I had no strength to resist. It … Continue reading 2026-07-28 (Tuesday) — The Car Man

(written on the 29th from notes) Didn't sleep a lot last night either, maybe five or six hours, but amazingly, I was rearin' to go and get stuff done. 🙏 I hung out a little bit with my mom and Thomas this morning, my mom making oatmeal for breakfast for me. I OD'd on oatmeal … Continue reading 2026-07-27 (Monday) — Deconversion

As you might imagine, there wasn't a whole lot to write about today, being a long day of driving. 🙃 I woke up somewhere around 6:30, I think, And though I tried to get myself to go back to sleep, as my van hadn't begun fully cooking yet, the best I seemed to be able … Continue reading 2026-07-26 (Sunday) — Made It. 🎉

(written on the 26th) I was up late last night, veging a bit, when somewhere around perhaps 1 a.m., and perhaps unsurprisingly, I started feeling the pull to seek out pornography. Play stupid games... 😅 Gratefully, and perhaps just a touch shy of miraculously, instead of using, I called my incredible mother (who leaves her … Continue reading 2026-07-25 (Saturday) — There’s Just No Comparison

Better today. Not great, but definitely better. 🙏 I slept in again a bit, I think until maybe 8:30 or 9:00? I don't remember exactly. I started writing my journal entry for yesterday pretty quickly after getting up, and it took me... a long time to finish. 🙃 Lots of things I wanted to write … Continue reading 2026-07-24 (Friday) — Just Three More to Go 🙏

(written on the 24th) It's been a challenging day. Slept in again, and I was grateful that we both got rain, and that at the same time, it didn't appear to have destroyed all my hard work on the trench. 🙏 The fact that I left the concrete cylinder in the trench blocking the path … Continue reading 2026-07-23 (Thursday) — Better To Let Go?

I actually had a good night's sleep. 😊 That was quite a welcome experience. 🙏 I don't usually do terribly in the amount of sleep that I get, but I don't generally do well either, I don't think? Anyway, I think between the decent amount of sleep and having taken it easy yesterday, I was … Continue reading 2026-07-22 (Wednesday) — Am I Doing It Right?

Okay, you can do this Stephen. 😅 I guess I had no idea how much was taken out of me physically with the hard push Saturday and yesterday, working out in the heat, the exhaustion, the dehydration, the lack of sleep. I had grand plans for today, but I just... couldn't. I was going to … Continue reading 2026-07-21 (Tuesday) — Flagged

(written on the 20th and 21st) I'm exhausted right now. I really don't want to write an entry, but if I don't, then I'm going to get even further behind, and I'm already 3 days behind. 😕 Exhausted. I got up at 6:00 something, don't remember exactly when, and I got going pretty quickly on … Continue reading 2026-07-20 (Monday) — Scrapped for $360!

(written on the 21st from nodes taken previously) 😕 I'm a bit disappointed. No, I don't feel like my talk went well. I was just too tired. I rambled and couldn't pull my thoughts together or make meaningful connections, and I couldn't remember basic things I normally remember. 😞 I was in a foggy Haze. … Continue reading 2026-07-19 (Sunday) — A Harder One