Hi, folks. 😊
I hope you’ve had an absolutely beautiful Sunday/Sabbath. 😊 It’s been another good day over here on my end.
It’s interesting, though. I find myself in a rather odd state of emotions. I’m not sure if this particular state has a name or not. Perhaps you can clue me in if it does. I feel elements of being happy and I think also of being sad–at the same time. And I think there’s a sense of longing in there, too.
I’m sitting on the little rocking bench on the front porch, peacefully typing away as I listen to the crickets and cicadas, and whatever else is playing the symphony that I hear in the evenings before I go to bed. It was warm today, but there’s a breeze right now, and still in my Sunday clothes, it all feels just… perfect. 😊
So, I’m peaceful, but I’m also… whatever I am right now. 😊 Perhaps I’ll write more about that feeling a little later in today’s post.
Gratefully, you can all cheer with me in my personal successes again today. I did make it to bed about 10 p.m., and I woke up with my alarm at 6. 😊 I think this slowly rolling back by 15 minutes each night is really helping, and I’m grateful for that.
It’s actually only 8:35 right now, and I’m fixing to go to bed at 9 tonight, actually, which is 30 minutes earlier than what will be my norm for the rest of the week. But I’m making an effort to not work on Sundays, which is actually super challenging, given the nature of my business and the people who depend on me. But I’m giving a worthy effort, and I think what that’s going to mean is getting up extra early on Mondays to have time to take care of the business stuff, so there is a work day for David. I’m not sure this is the best way to do it, but it’s what’s gonna happen tomorrow, and I guess we can evaluate what happens and adjust as necessary.
I’m excited that I’m getting closer and closer to my desired routine. I’ve still got quite a bit to get figured out, but the bed time and wake up time are one of the most crucial pieces for me. Once those are established, the rest… it’s just structuring the awake time, prioritizing, making time for the best things, etc.
Anyway, all old news for many, and even for me, but also for me, there’s often quite the disparity between what I know and how much I’m able to live by what I know. Fortunately, that’s not the important part: The important part is that both keep advancing–that I keep seeking truth, and that I keep striving to live the truth I know. Where that takes me is where that takes me, and I’ll give a worthy effort. Of that I’m sure.
Another success or two, I memorized hymn #4 today as well as going back over the rest of the scriptures I have memorized from 2nd Nephi. I know they’re not all solid right now, but it’s not going to take much to get them back there, thankfully.
It really is nice to have these positive thoughts in my mind throughout the day. I feel a greater measure of peace and confidence. I’m still feeling like I’m leaving below what I’m capable of, though. I still feel a call to get out there and just… work all day every day to bring people together in love, service, compassion, etc.
I’m going to meditate on that a bit, I think. I don’t want to get to the end of my life and look back and regret that I didn’t give my all to this world, that I held back. Previously, I’ve held back because I felt that was the right thing to do. I don’t know if it still is or not. That’s what I’m going to find out.
If it is, then it is. I hope it’s not. And I want to see myself get out there and let go and just give everything to trying to bring all those things, love and peace and compassion… all those things to this world, to fight to raise them up.
Oh, how part of me longs to just break out and do these things. Perhaps in my naivete, I feel I can make such a difference for good in this world. Perhaps it is naive, but… I’d rather be naive and idealistic and fail than think it’s not possible.
It is possible.
And one day, unless God stops me, I’m going to get out there and do it. I know you’ve heard this before, and here I remain, with very few readers and still running a mobile mechanic business instead of doing the things that lift my soul… But one day… one day, it’ll come to pass. One day… one day…
And do you know what? I’m gonna prioritize that now, actually.
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Okay, just did. Top of my to-do list now. It’s time to do this. Makes me smile to think about doing this. A few nerves. But, I want to finally just give all of me to this world. I feel I’ve been blessed with great gifts to care about people, inspire people, and help people feel loved, etc. I don’t want my candle to burn in a closet.
I hope that doesn’t sound arrogant. There’s no feeling of superiority that I feel when I write it, just hope–hope to lift the world, hope to inspire love, hope for a happier world.
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Anyway, so those thoughts are on my mind right now, having displaced the others I started this post with, but they’re all in there. And now I come back to the first ones, a little lighter, a little happier.
Do you ever feel connected to someone who’s not physically near you? I do. Not often, though. Rarely, actually, but it happened again today, briefly.
Well, I’m past my goal. I was going to go to bed at 9 to get up at 5, but it’s looking like it’s gonna be 9:30 and 5:30. Oh well. 😊 Ain’t gonna worry about it. But it is time to do this, though.
#1. I’m grateful to feel a great sense of peace and a feeling of being settled. No, I don’t have all the answers. No, I don’t know everything that’s coming. But… I’m unconcerned right now. Bring it on. 😊
#2. I’m grateful for really tasty frozen fruit. I probably ate close to half… or more than half 😁, of the four-pound bag of frozen strawberries, mango, peaches, and pineapples. So tasty.
#3. I’m grateful for beautiful music. I’ve had this amazing song in my head all day. It’s… soul filling for me.
#4. I’m grateful that it looks like we might have a full day for David tomorrow. Cross your fingers. Positive vibes, prayers, whatever you’ve got. Thanks!
#5. I”m grateful to be reaching my goals and having so many positive changes coming to pass in my life. Thank you. All of you. For giving me your love as I forge ahead in my journey.
#6. I’m grateful for connections with loved ones. In person, at a distance, however they come.
Well, my lovelies, peace and love to all of you. 😊
Loves and hugs.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 