2020-11-01 — Mama’s Home

Happy November! 😊

And happy birthday to my daddio, the big 79! I’m tired, and I’m late again. It’s 10:23, but I just got finished with a fabulous conversation with my friend Cory. Deep, exciting, passionate gospel stuff–life, nature of God, purpose of life kind of stuff.

So fun. So so fun.

I really think so may have a distorted view of who God is (not talking about Cory, here, by the way 😊). Even scripture uses words like anger and wrath and vengeance and whatnot, and you know what? I personally think those words are there because that’s what the people at the time could understand, but not because that’s who God is. I just… don’t believe it. I believe God talks to us in the ways we understand, and that’s the kind of God that made most sense to them, and he, being who he is wasn’t bothered by it, because in the grand scheme of things, it won’t matter if some things are misunderstood here and there. Still… it’s important to me right now. He’s not those things.

He’s love.

Anyway, I’ll go into all that and a lot more in the book I’m writing now. Very slow progress, but progress. I felt a push this morning to be better at getting going with it. I have a little push to put aside the car stuff and to get going more full time on this stuff. I feel like that perhaps that’s part of the mission I came here to accomplish–to help the world get to know God, the real him, not the angry, jealous, vengeful God that so many believe in who only loves you if you do what he says, and punishes you if you don’t.

Again, he’s not that: He’s love.

So… yeah, happy Sunday! Slept in. Doing well on the new bed. No sore back the last two nights. No seam to be sleeping across. Still waking up a million times, but that’s normal for me, in general, I think. I’m such a light sleeper that I think I wake up every time I switch positions. Good luck to me when I’m married. 🙃

Spent a little while getting some things buttoned up, so mom could have a house that looked in really good shape after she’s been gone for 7+ months. Got that taken care of pretty well.

Didn’t end up having church today because Liz and company had it early, and I didn’t know they were going to do that.

Had a good family meeting up at Jim’s tonight. Next projects on my to-do list for the greater property here are with Jim–to assess the backhoe arm implement for the tractor (see what all needs to be repaired on it) and to get the lighting fixed in the storage barn. I’ll do that on Thursday evening when Jim gets home from work.

What else… uh… that’s pretty much it. I’m tired. Oh… wait…

#1. I’m grateful to have been able to get most everything straightened up that I wanted to button up before mom got home. The garage wasn’t possible because it’s a bit of a controlled disaster, but I got a lot of the other stuff done, so that was good.

#2. I’m grateful for passion–to have things that I’m passionate about, constructive things, in this case, sharing about who I believe God to be, what he’s like, and what that means for all of us.

#3. I’m grateful to have tasty foods to eat. I have a massive bowl of pineapple (I cut up three pineapples today because they were getting overripe).

#4. Grateful to have mom home. 😊

#5. I’m grateful for fall walks in the woods. Beautiful day. Beautiful place.

Well, folks, loves and hugs. Forward. Whatever it takes.

Bring it on.

Lift the World.

~ stephen