Holar, mon peeps!
Happy Friday! It’s been in interesting one today. Can I send forth a cathartic blast of… stuff before I think happy thoughts? 🙃
Well… maybe I’ll just try and stay positive through it all and just stick to gratitude. Yep. Okay… let’s do that. Let positivity reign… and rain. 😁
#1. I’m grateful that I was able to have a full day of work today even after the full day canceled on us–the big 5-hour job canceling last night and the other job just not responding in the morning when we were supposed to go over. He ended up with four jobs today, and a decent day’s pay from those jobs, so that was good.
#2. I’m grateful that I was strong enough to reach out to Cory today when I was triggered in my porn addiction. I was lucky, honestly, that I didn’t relapse, but once the luck had passed, I was fortunately strong enough to reach out, and I’m still good. Cross your fingers.
#3. I’m grateful that I was able to be helpful to my friend today. At least I hope I was. Three times over the last three months she’s almost died because her bronchial tubes have closed off so tightly that you couldn’t even fit a human hair through them (that’s what the doctor said this last time, I think). This last time, it resulted in chest compressions to keep her alive. Doctors keep saying they can’t find anything wrong with her, but it gets worse each time. I’m not going to share details of all her symptoms, but I’ve spent a many hours going over symptoms and history with her and doing research, and I was finally able to piece together a tentative diagnosis that I think really fits her symptoms, history, etc. I’m very hopeful. We’re in a place where at least we have a solid direction and leads when doctors have basically said they don’t know–all tests come up normal. No problems. She’s fine. Well… she’s obviously not, but I think we’ve got it figured out. Crossing fingers. She’s only got a week or less before it’s likely to hit again (been cyclical these three months), so hopefully we’ll be better prepared for it. Cross your fingers, send prayers/positive thoughts, please. Thanks!
#4. One of the things her doctor prescribed was an EpiPen to hopefully buy her time if/when the next episode happens, buy time enough for the ambulance to reach her before she passes out from lack of air. I’m grateful that I was able to catch that they prescribed a dose for a toddler (33-66 lb child) instead of the dose for an adult. She’d need to take both doses that are in the prescription just to get one adult dose. She’s gonna talk to her PC and pharmacist to get that straightened out. Time is of the essence. Don’t want her not waking up one morning or not not having what she needs. Anyway, grateful to catch that. Hopefully, we can get it corrected.
#5. I’m grateful to have two mechanics working for me tomorrow, first day for one, a trial day. We’ll see how it goes. I’m grateful for the possible step forward. More crossing of fingers. The new gentleman’s first job could be a dousy… so… we’ll see.
#6. I’m grateful we have a good amount of firewood to keep us warm. The gas valve came today. We’ll see what all we’re looking at to replace it. I might do it. I might not. We’ll see.
#7. I’m grateful… I’m having a hard time thinking of new things. I’m grateful that I have what looks like a full day for both mechanics tomorrow.
#8. Though I’m late to bed again, I’m grateful to be getting to bed earlier than yesterday. I’ll be in bed by about 10:15 tonight, which is better than the 11 last night.
#9. I’m grateful to find myself less stressed about “stressful” things.
#10. I’m grateful that I wasn’t as stuck in the doldrums today. I was able to get out of the dragging days a good bit. I think a lot of the dragging days has to do with my mind having less to focus on with work and the normal things, and so I’m just with my thoughts, and it’s easy to think about hard things in my life and to wish for things I want to come sooner or whatever other thoughts that aren’t helpful because I can’t control things, so there’s no sense stressing about things.
#11. I’m grateful I made it to 10 things today. 😁
Loves and hugs to all.
Bring it on.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 