Hiya, folks. 😊
I’m running a little low on energy today. I decided to sleep in front of the fire last night in the hopes that I’d be able to have the house warm for my mom when she got up in the morning because I’d have kept it going all night. Well… I was successful to a degree, but it probably wasn’t the smartest thing. I fell asleep a little too long, so the fire was out when I woke up, so I spent a good amount of time trying to get it going again, and… yeah…
Long story short, I ended up not sleeping enough, spending lots of time tending the fire, finally going upstairs when my mom got up, and then sleeping until like…9.
Whoops!
…and I’m still tired. 🙃
It’s been another good day, this one of the sorrowful but determined variety? There was a lot more to the day than that, of course, but that’s what is most poignant. I wasn’t sad, per se, just thinking about some pain that I caused (and I know that’s not the most accurate way of putting it, but I’m not quite at the place where I’m comfortable saying “things that I said/did that others chose to by hurt by,” which is more accurate but feels like shirking responsibility. I’ll take the time one day to figure out what’s an accurate and sensitive way of expressing that sentiment.
Anyway, it was a good motivating day for me, turning my heart in love toward one who’s felt hurt by things I’ve said on a few occasions over the last handful of months. I genuinely want to be a place of refuge, a safe place, a place of comfort. I don’t ever want to be a source of pain, for her or for anyone.
So, that was good for me today–good to focus outward. Good to work on striving to be love.
I’m gonna end here. It’s 9:31, and I need to be in bed.
#1. I’m grateful for the cozy fire in the fireplace.
#2. I’m grateful that my finger is increasing in range of motion.
#3. I apparently smashed my knee without knowing it? I have no idea how, but I have a bruise and a huge squishy lump on my knee cap not much smaller than half a jumbo egg? 😶 How do I hit my knee hard enough to bust my bursa and not remember? Oh, gratitude. I’m grateful that it doesn’t really hurt. 🙃
#4. I’m grateful to be in a warm house and have warm clothes. The temperature is dropping quickly, and its super windy, so out here that means really cold. And I was thinking about those people who can’t get warm today, who are just cold and don’t have the means to be warm–living on the streets, no place to go, some risking their lives sleeping in dumpsters to stay warm.
#5. I’m grateful for this computer to write to all y’all.
#6. I’m grateful for indoor plumbing.
#7. I’m grateful for soft beds.
Thought for the day:
“The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.” Ghandi
Loves and hugs. 😊
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 