It's been a... heavy day today. I'm lonely. And... today it was hard. I slept in. Did online church. Worked on the creek, trying to divert the water so the deck can be repaired properly. I made some decent progress, but there's a ton to do still. Lots and lots and lots of work. I … Continue reading 2021-01-31 — Goodbye January

Relapsed. Tired. Rough day. Bed. #1. I'm grateful to have washing machines and dryers. #2. I'm grateful for the my portable canopy. Helped keep me from getting soaked in the rain today. #3. I'm grateful that the rain had stopped and the ground dried out by the time I had to crawl on the ground … Continue reading 2021-01-30 — The Minimal

(sigh) Honestly, I'm angry right now. I busted my butt for a customer, multiple times over multiple days, going the extra mile for him multiple times to help him out, giving discounts, going out of my way to teach him how to do things himself, not charging for all my time, and today he thanks … Continue reading 2021-01-29 — Another Thief

2:07 a.m. Just got home from the last job (which, incidentally, happened to be identical to last night's last job--a 2006, silver, Honda Civic starter. Can't say I've had that happen since I've been a full-time mechanic. Long day. Nice not to have the stress of trying to get David taken care of. Nice to … Continue reading 2021-01-28 — Pounding.

Happy birthday, to my wonderful mother. 😊 ... Funny how I say I'm gonna head one direction, and what nearly always happens is that I end up going the other at an even faster pace. 🙃 I say I'm going to work less. I say I'm going to transition to humanitarian/peace work. But what do … Continue reading 2021-01-27 — Go Go Go

Hola, my peeps. 😊 Another pretty decent day today without the continuous ridiculousness 😊. In fact, my first job went pretty fabulously, honestly. I figured out a way to do a three-hour job in under 2 hours. That was super cool. Supposedly, you have to take the axle out to replace the alternator on a … Continue reading 2021-01-26 — Busy Busy Busy

I almost don't even know how to react. Just... smiles. Why? Because the day is over and guess what? It went... smoothly! 😶 It feels so... yay!!! Got up... had to scramble a little bit because I didn't do scheduling yesterday or Saturday night, so I got a late start to a busy day, but … Continue reading 2021-01-25 — Smooth

Hi, folks, One of the challenges for me in writing this daily journal is the recurring discouragement of sharing where I'm at, the struggles I'm going through, and the sense, be it accurate or not, that some of my readers are frustrated with my inability to overcome some of my personal issues. It's hard to … Continue reading 2021-01-24 — Getting Up

I'm exhausted. Glad it's time to sleep. Glad it's Sunday tomorrow. #1. I'm grateful I got the fuel pump/tank/lines job done finally. #2. I'm glad the job from yesterday I had to go back to today was a super easy fix. #3. I'm grateful my mom sent me out with food this morning. Saved my … Continue reading 2021-01-23 — Crashing

Relapsed. Another nightmare day. Not sure how it's possible to have so many things go sideways in a week. It's just... it's literally like the universe has planned it. I'm just at a loss and crumbled in little pieces. I feel like I've reverted to the person I was at the beginning of last year... … Continue reading 2021-01-22 — 🙁