Hola, folks. I’m beat.
It’s 10:43. Been another crazy day. I worked all day but didn’t finish my first car until after 6, I think. 😶 I ended up finishing three cars today, finishing the last one sometime around 9ish. I also spent a while at the junk yard for another job I’ll finish tomorrow. I worked all day, but it feels like I didn’t get much done.
That said, I feel like, overall, I did really well today. I stayed positive and calm and patient through a rough day in many regards. It wasn’t until probably around 7:00, when being way over the edge physically, and having had a rough day, I lost a tool that I thought I’d carefully set aside, knowing I was going to use it. It took me about 30-40 minutes to find the tool when I had so many cars still waiting for me.
At that point, I sort of broke down. Not so much with anger. More just exhausted mild despair. Sort of a pleading… not this. Not now. Not after everything that’s happened today that I’ve made so much progress dealing with.
Anyway, was what it was.
I’m home. I’m tired. Very tired. I’m gonna call it a night.
#1. I’m grateful that I’m home safely and that there’s still a chance I can reverse having gone way over the edge. Might not be able to. Might be down for a day or two. We’ll see. Hopefully, I’ll be okay. I’m just happy I have the chance to still reverse the issue.
#2. I’m grateful that I was able to make some really good progress today. Choosing to stay positive again and again and again, and even at the point when I lost the tool, I still did a lot better than I normally do. Yay. 😊
#3. I’m grateful I was able to find warm gloves for David today and that I’m able to buy him things here and there.
#4. I’m grateful to be able to go to sleep. I. Am. Exhausted.
#5. I’m grateful to be clean and sober. Today is a dangerous day, and tomorrow will be as well. Having gone over the edge, I seem to struggle staying sober when my body gets out of whack. But today is day 30. I’m clean. I’m sober. I’ve been clean since before my birthday and before the start of the new year. Love first. Love only. I banish selfishness. Love, Stephen, and all will be well.
Thought of the Day: “Don’t be afraid to give up the good to go for the great.” –John D. Rockefeller
Okay, my lovelies. Loves and hugs to all y’all! 😊
Lift the World.
~ stephen
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