Things might be changing faster than I’d thought.
I let David go today.
😕
I just… my standards for work are just higher than what he does. I feel like he’s a good, honest guy, but what he thinks is good work and what I think is good work… it’s just… we’re not compatible. I’m a little sad right now. Sad that it’s going this way. I’ll probably chat with him tomorrow and get my stuff from him and get him his stuff.
Not so fun. 😔
The winds of change are blowing. Where will they lead?
I don’t know.
I have a gentleman applying to work for me tomorrow. I’ll see what I feel there. I’m burned out. I need mechanics that I can trust 100% to do good, high-quality work. I have a super strong conscience, and I worry about the jobs that have been done for the last 9 months. There’s a mountain of happy customers, I think, but… I worry about the quality. I worry about problems they’ll have down the road that they might not have if the quality had been better. I don’t know… maybe it would all be great. Maybe I’m much ado about nothing. I just… pretty much every single time I’ve been to a car that he’s worked on, I find something that significantly bothers me about the quality of the work. I brushed it off for a long time. I’m a perfectionist. I’m probably not realistic, but some things… they just… you…
(sigh)
I’m sad.
And… my pocket book is gonna take an absolutely massive hit. But… that’s just money. I want to stop worrying about if I’m doing what’s morally right or not when I know the work isn’t up to my standards on probably a very regular basis.
Sad day.
😕
So… it’s been a long day today, and that was the last thing to happen (letting David go) before I got home for the day. I started working early, and I’m still going. I didn’t get much done, but… I’m still going forward, bit by bit, day by day.
I had a quasi night thing last night. I also stayed up way later than I should looking at vehicles to buy, just… my way of decompressing, in a sense, I think. Vegging. Getting some non-work time into my life. I also let myself go into things that usually drag me down 😕, though, gratefully, they didn’t drag me down much at all this time. Lucky escape, really. Lucky escape.
#1. I’m grateful that I’m doing… relatively well right now. I’m feeling a little stressed, but it’s not really that much, honestly, given what all has been going on.
#2. I’m grateful that the jobs I did were relatively light today, not too hard.
#3. I’m grateful that, though it’s yet another day delayed on the fuel tank/pump job, at least I think I’m on the road to having it done.
#4. I’m grateful to my mom for bringing me the things I forgot to take with me for work. I left in a bit of a hurry this morning, but the first car I was working on was pretty much right on the way to the doctor’s appointment my mom was going to, so she offered to bring the stuff to me, which arrived in perfect time, just as I’d finished up the car I was working on.
#5. I’m grateful the Honda guy paid me. He didn’t pay me what I think we deserved, but… oh well. It is what it is. I’m not gonna get torn up about it.
Well, folks… tomorrow is gonna be a bit nutty. I have lots of cars on my schedule, need to meet up with David, need to meet up with the gentleman who’s applying to work for me. It’s gonna be crazy. I think like 8 cars or something? So… yeah… nutty. We’ll see how it goes.
I was thinking about non-profit grocery stores today, trying to come up with a way for all able-bodied people to never go hungry while also being self sufficient and not needing to rely on government or charities. I wonder how it could work. Work for the store, get food at cost… something like that? I don’t know. I haven’t thought through it a whole lot, but we live in a world of such abundance. I have no idea, but I’d bet that the amount of good food that just the United States throws away through waste and bad govt. policies would feed every hungry mouth in the whole world.
Well, folks, it’s time for me to go to bed. It’s after 10, and I still have some work to do, and life just… got blown an interesting direction.
Thought of the Day: “I can’t change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination.” -Jimmy Dean
39 days clean today.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
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