Dare I say… two days in a row?!?!
Yesterday, I related that I was able to react to the mountain in my path the way I’d hoped I could. Today, I am humbled and grateful to say that not only has that great blessing continued from yesterday through today, but it has advanced still further 🥳. It’s not all the way to where my highest dreams and hopes would have me, but… wow, even the highest don’t feel that far away now. And that… is a miracle in my mind, one for which I am full of gratitude and awe.
And I give the glory and credit to my God.
I have felt strength fill me that I haven’t had in years, not since the last time I was really close to The Big Dude. And I felt him in a way today that I’ve never felt in my life before, an experience I’ve never had before.
It was wonderful. 😊
Yep, glory to The Man. My heart and my soul give thanks. I pray that I remember, that I not forget as quickly as I usually do… hopefully, that I not forget at all. I’ve written down my experiences to remind me. I pray that I might stay focused, stay grateful, choose humility, choose love– yes… love… with all my heart and soul.
I asked Cory a question today, sort of a rhetorical one that I suppose was meant more for me than for anything else. It went something like this: What would it look like if every choice I made each day was specifically and purposefully chosen to help me love purely, perfectly, completely?
Something like that, anyway. Love is the heart I want to have. And I feel like I am being gifted the experiences that allow me to choose to strip away the fear and the pride that have been keeping me from loving with that pure and perfect love. I feel like the dross is being consumed, and the gold is being refined. Or to use a previous analogy some of you have heard me use before, I feel like my little ball of fire that is the core of who I am is expanding and consuming the dark cloud that surrounds the bright core.
I might be rambling now. Or repeating myself.
Sorry. 🙃
Anyway, so… yeah… in summary… two days in a row. 😊🥳 Personal spiritual breakthroughs. Beautiful experiences. I feel like the heart, the best and most love-filled heart I’ve ever had has returned. And I even feel like… dare I say this as well? I feel like the love I feel has penetrated perhaps even deeper, the tenderness rooted yet further down.
It brings me real joy, and I’m grateful.
Oh, how I hope I can choose to keep this and not fritter it away by letting pride and fear creep back in! That is perhaps one of the hardest challenges ever, to hold on to what I’ve once felt.
If I can’t hold onto the feeling, which… sadly… is probably likely, I do have this to hold onto, the memories of today, which are written down in my special journals.
Thank you, Lord.
#1. I’m grateful that I was able to get to bed on time and get up on time. Two days in a row of back to the plan. And do you know what?!?! It’s an even better morning routine than it was before because I’ve added working on my book. I made a teensy… oh…
#2. I’m grateful that I made some progress writing my book today. It was only a teensy tiny bit, as I was so exhausted that my brain wasn’t working, but it was time set aside, and it was a worthy effort today, for which I am grateful.
#3. I’m grateful that I was able to get that really big dead tree down today. My chainsaw is only 16 inches, so it’s not so affective against big ones like that one, but with a little help from my ax, I brought it down (and it, in turn took down another tree I was hoping would survive it’s fall, but… collateral damage. I did what I could. Life goes on. One more huge dead tree is down, and with it, a huge tangle of vines that were choking the trees out. Boom. Progress.
#4. I’m grateful to have a warm house and warm clothes. It is frigid out here right now. Absolutely frigid. Highs will be about 5 or six degrees and lows in the negatives, with wind chills I think around -20? 😬 On the bright side, that crazy cold will bring with it 3-6 inches of snow! We might get the second real storm since I’ve lived in Arkansas! Fun!! ❄❄❄
#5. I’m grateful to have been reaching my step goals again. Yesterday was the first time in… months? And I’m only 600 away from 10k right now. I might make it. I might not. I’m not gonna keep myself awake just to get a few steps in, but I do have time. It’s just 8:32. I still want to write in my personal private journal for the day, I started doing that again yesterday, but I might still get my 10k steps.
#6. I’m grateful that I was able to get off the hill, up the other hill, and to three different grocery stores to get loaded up for this next storm (which lots of people were apparently doing, as the shelves were rather bare of some things. Fortunately, most of the healthy stuff is still there? 🙃 Benefits of eating healthily?
Funny.
#7. I’m grateful that I made it through the day without napping. I’ve been exhausted much of the day. My choosing to radically jump back my wake up time like… almost 4 hours? has really hit hard. Even though I’ve gotten the same amount of rest, my rhythm is just… way off track, so I’ve been exhausted for much of the day, dragging, but… it’s been a wonderful day, it’s over now. I made it.
Happy Valentine’s Day to all you wonderful people out there. 💗💚💙
My love to all of you. I hope you all have happy, beautiful days. 😊 And if you’ll spend your Valentine’s Day without a significant other, as I will, perhaps you can join me in finding someone who’s lonely and brightening their day.
Thought of the Day: “The world says fall in love, but the universe says rise in love.” ~ Matshona Dhliwayo
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 