I think all that time off, watching money fly out the doors and windows without almost any influx has me a little more focused on financial matters? Honestly, I don't know. I know that I'd said I was only going to schedule like 4 billable hours a day, and here I am working just as … Continue reading 2021-03-30 — Something About 4 Billable Hours

Having said yes to so many people meant a busy day today. I did seven cars, didn't get home until after midnight (partly because of a battery acid spill in the Durango and on my person. Whoops. I managed to find myself trying to go through a red light, after having stopped for it, then … Continue reading 2021-03-29 — Another Late One

I'm so tired. 🙃 I'm grateful for this day of rest. It's such a nice respite. I keep looking forward to Sunday as a day to focus on spiritual things, but lately I've been finding the same result. I've worked myself so hard the Saturday prior that I'm physically just spent on Sunday, and when … Continue reading 2021-03-28 — Early to Bed

😶 Am I asleep? That would be nice. It's... 2:13 a.m. It's been a long day. I slept in a little bit. Then I spent a couple hours plus helping my hill family do hill family projects. That was good. Glad to have made progress there with the hill clan. Then it was off to … Continue reading 2021-03-27 — A Few Too Many Yeses

Hiya, folks, I'm not sure how it happens. I work fewer hours, and yet I'm buried deeper. That's what it feels like (just in terms of life and all of the things I have to do and get done). It's just uncanny. I know I mentioned something similar not too long ago, but it's just... … Continue reading 2021-03-26 — Falling Farther Behind

Well, I'm a lot later than I was hoping because WordPress, apparently, keeps decreasing functionality, and now copy and paste doesn't work anymore on their pages. It'll say it's copied, but it won't paste anything, and it's got a mind of it's own trying to highlight as well. It's... fabulous... for practicing patience. 🙃 I … Continue reading 2021-03-25 — Distracted

So... Today was day three since the relapse. I was better today than yesterday, but I've made my stand. Three days is enough. Story... "Thomas Edison devoted ten years and all of his money to developing the nickel-alkaline storage battery at a time when he was almost penniless. Through that period of time, his record … Continue reading 2021-03-24 — Indomitable

Hey, y'all. I chose not to work again today... Just... not with. It I relapsed in multiple things last night, porn and TV time wasting--bouncing back and forth between porn and watching like four or five episodes of Chuck. I really like that show. But... it's not what I want to be spending my time … Continue reading 2021-03-23 — Trying to Pull Out

I relapsed again. Feels like the same old same old spiral. 😞. Heaven help me. Really. ~ stephen

I relapsed today. I flirted with it last night and had a narrow miss, and then I full blown did today, just an hour ago or so. I can't express in words how devastated I am. ...I was doing... so well... 😞 ~ stephen