So… I bought another vehicle today. 🙃
Can you guess what it is? Might the title give any clues?
Yup. 😶
I did. I certainly did. I finally did.
Today I bought an old (70s, I think?) John Deere 450B bulldozer aaaaaand a trailer to haul it with. 🙃
Now I just need a truck capable of towing 20,000+ lbs. 😶🙃
I’ll get back to all that. First… I ended up staying up until almost 1 last night, watching YouTube Pawn Star clips/thingies/episodes/whatever they are. Not so great. Haven’t wasted time like that for a looooong time. I quite watching TV and movies almost this time last year? It was… certainly entertaining, especially for a guy like me. I’ve been a flipper my whole life (buy low, sell for more), and so it’s sort of right up my alley, find the good deal, figure out what I can sell it for, make a buck. So… I let that suck me in for… hours.
Finally went to bed around 1, slept in, felt lousy still from yesterday, having gone way over the edge. I think my body mind and emotions followed suit, even starting yesterday. I know y’all have noticed the correlation between my struggle to make good choices and my mental health and how well I’m eating and drinking.
I think yesterday was the first time that, for me at least, it seemed to be a direct correlation. Just… over the edge. Boom, I hit an emotional wall. I started getting discouraged (for no good reason, really). My body is still revolting a good bit. Mild headache, lack of energy, etc.
I took it easy this morning, even though the schedule is slammed with cars. I just… my wasn’t in a good place. I got it going okay by about noon or so, helped mom deal with cardboard in the burn pile. Then I went out to work, where I did a grand total of one job and called it a day.
Interestingly, when I got home, mom was just about ready to leave to take the cardboard, and I was about to jump in to go with her, when I felt like I shouldn’t. So I walked in the front door, was like, “ok, Lord, if not that, then what?” I went over to my computer, and I’m not even sure how I got to it, but I’d only just opened my computer when, staring me in the face was an ad on Facebook marketplace for an old John Deere 450B 6-way bulldozer (6-way blade dozer being exactly what I’ve wanted). The price was in the acceptable range, and the dozer was nearby.
I messaged the gentleman, and he responded within less than I minute, I think? He was only 10 minutes, or so away, so I arranged to go look at it, and… bada bing, bada boom, I bought the dozer. I talked him down a couple thousand, and he’s delivering it tonight, on the trailer I’m probably gonna buy with it as well (I’m planning on buying the trailer, too, unless something happens to convince me otherwise).
I’m not saying I was “supposed” to buy the thing, just that it was interesting how I felt like I shouldn’t go with mom, and then this just opened up and fell in my lap.
So, anyway… there you go: Another addition to the family. 🙃
Trying to be smart and use my money to make money. Might take a little while to make the money back on this, but the plan is to find a way to get the dozer to pay for itself. Rent it out, maybe. I have some friends in construction. They might be interested in renting it? The trailer… that’ll hold it’s value pretty easily. It’s got two 10k axles, and it’s a 5th wheel/gooseneck whatever, so it’s in high demand as a trailer, so… I’m solid there. The dozer is a bit of a gamble, but I think I’ll be okay.
Should be super helpful here on the farm, redo the roads, regrade stuff. Make it possible to get the back road level all the way out, just in case winter ever hits again. 🙂
Anyway, a bit of an expensive toy as toys go, but I think I got it for a decent price. A guy an hour south offered him $2k more (he showed me the FB conversation), but that guy had to wait to get money from the bank next week, and… I had the money ready, and I was only 10 minutes away, and he’s… not hurting for money, let’s just say that.
So… I’m now a dozer man. 🙂 And I have a heavy-duty trailer, too. I’ve been looking for trailers a lot lately. I’ve been thinking about trailers about that size as well, thinking about hauling both cars and heavy equipment.
…just need that truck now… 🙃
My little ’04 Silverado $1500 ain’t gonna cut it. It’s max isn’t even enough to tow larger SUV if it’s on a trailer. Not that I don’t appreciate having it. Having a truck is fabulous. Very grateful, given what we do out here.
#1. I’m grateful that I’m still clean and sober. 35 days. Feeling the way I do, and being as discouraged as I was and with all the pressures I’ve been dealing with in my own heart and head, it’s a bit of a… it’s a blessing.
#2. I’m grateful to have, two days in a row, not run myself even more into the ground by working harder than I should. I’m still quite over the edge, but I’m… grateful I didn’t push too hard: Just one easy job today.
#3. I’m grateful for good food, a fridge full of food, so full we have to rearrange things to get the food out. Pretty amazing, honestly.
#4. I’m grateful for my health One of mom’s friends is dying of cancer of the tongue right now, that’s gone other places. It’s… awful. Sobering.
#5. I’m grateful to have plenty of people who want my help with their cars. Though I’m burned out, I’m extremely blessed.
Thought of the Day: “The major value in life is not what you get. The major value in life is what you become.” ~ Jim Rohn
Loves and hugs.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Daily Accountability Summary:
Morning Routine Weighted Success: 41% (again)
Evening Routine Weighted Success: 64% (down again…)
Pornography/Sex Addiction Battle: 35 days
To-Do Top 3 Prioritization: 0%
Free of Texting While Driving: 5
Lift the World 