Hi, folks. I’ve been… off today. Short fused in the morning. Then just… struggling… It’s been that way from the get go this morning. On the bright side, I got up a 6:30 today, so I’m inching in the right direction. 7:30 yesterday (I think?). 6:30 today. Gonna try for 6:00 tomorrow morning… I’m hopeful. I feel so… pathetic, honestly. You’d think it would be easy. Just make the decision. Do it. Not sure why it’s so hard. But, man, I’m struggling to do those simple things.
It’s 10:45 right now, so I’m late again, but it’s better than it could have been. My last job bumped to tomorrow, which is good but not so good at the same time.
First stop was the dentist. That was… good? Got a cavity filled. One of the fillings had cracked, and the cavity formed underneath, I guess.
If you have a tooth ache, get it checked out. Don’t want that decay going too deep. Then it’s the lovely root canal. I’ve been grateful to not have any of those. Don’t have the best teeth, but I’m doing okay so far.
I’m just… not doing well today. Spiritually feeling dead. Haven’t been putting that stuff first, and I’m paying for it. It’s amazing how that is.
This last year has kicked my butt. Well… this last decade, plus a little has. Rough, rough, rough.
Guess that’s my cue for gratitude, lest I slide into further unhappy thinking.
#1. I’m grateful that most of the cars today were fairly straightforward.
#2. I’m grateful that the last car got bumped to tomorrow.
#3. I’m grateful that I had warm clothes with me for the first couple jobs. It was a little colder today. Not bad, but a bit colder. Definitely uncomfortable without the warm clothes I had.
#4. I’m grateful to have lots of happy customers.
#5. I’m grateful to have the fan blowing on me while I sleep. I love having a cold face while I sleep. Spoiled first-world living that I enjoy.
Loves and hugs.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 