I'm really struggling, and I'm tired of reporting that to all y'all day in and day out. Just reporting that is adding to my already sky high level of discouragement, and I'm just tired. I'm tired of life. No, I'm not suicidal in any realistic degree. I'm just burned out of life right now. I … Continue reading 2021-04-19 — Signing Off

Hey, folks, happy Sunday. It's been an interesting day. I relapsed last night. It was late. I finished my post and was like, "I'm gonna check the news." Now, I've felt like I shouldn't look at the news. It can, sometimes be a trigger, and it's usually an unnecessary downer as well, but I hadn't … Continue reading 2021-04-18 — Deck Builders

Holar! Been an interesting day. Black lung? I just coughed up a bunch of gooey cold crud from my lungs, and either my lungs are turning black inside, or I've been breathing in yucky work chemicals, because my lung mucus stuff was full of black crap. Lovely. One more reason to retire from cars. Too … Continue reading 2021-04-17 — Week’s End

I keep thinking it's allergies, and then it turns out to be a cold/virus of some kind. I always forget that lately (at least since moving to Arkansas?), my colds start out feeling like an allergy attack. For the future, if I forget again, remind me that when I sneeze like 5 times in a … Continue reading 2021-04-16 — Garage Day

Fight #2. Emotionally exhausting, but happily resolved. Rough first... most of the day. But ended well. Grateful. Allergy meds kicking in. Getting drowsy. Rough allergy day. Barely worked today with all that was going on. Gonna be rather rainy tomorrow. We'll see how that goes. I'm a bit backed up right now. #1. Grateful for … Continue reading 2021-04-15 — Exhausting

It's been an awful day. Nightmare car. Awful fight with a friend. I'm discouraged... broken. At least I'll get to bed at a decent hour? I hope. Goodnight. ~ stephen

So... I worked all day today and... lost money. 🙃 On the bright side, that charging issue that I've never been able to figure out before when the new alternator didn't fix the charging problem? Well, for the first time... ever... today I found one answer. The throttle body was dirty. "Um... Stephen. Throttles aren't … Continue reading 2021-04-13– Looking on the Bright Side

It was supposed to be a lighter day today. It was going that direction. I thought I'd be home early today, but the last job... nope. Didn't go very well, and it'll be continuing tomorrow. Seemed like an easy one. Charging issue. But apparently, the problem is neither the battery nor the alternator. Battery tested … Continue reading 2021-04-12 — Longer but Lighter… Mostly.

Hey, y'all. It's 9 p.m., and I'm gonna get up at 5, come hell or high water. So... quick rundown of the day. Rough morning. Just... feeling numb, sort of existing. Struggling. Didn't go to church. Caught the tail end of it on Zoom. Spent some time outside feeling discouraged about how mother nature is … Continue reading 2021-04-11 — Come Hell or High Water

This little guy is tired. It's just shy of midnight. I didn't let myself spiral today. A little last night, but I've managed to not spiral today. So that's a good thing. I worked all day, like I've been doing. I'm mostly caught up from all the jobs that piled up. I probably still have … Continue reading 2021-04-10 — Ah… Sunday.