Really hard day today for me. My choice to focus on the hard things snowballed, and it’s been a really hard day.
It’s been beautiful outside though, rain on and off, temperature perfect. Cloudy and absolutely gorgeous. I loved that part of the day. It was just wonderful.
I didn’t get started working until late late. I got up, chatted with the Captain of my bowling team, studied a wee bit, and then spent a few hours chatting with a friend. I was struggling a lot, and she was trying to help. I’m grateful for friends and their support.
Then it was off to some cars. I only did two today, just moving really slowly, I guess. First one was a no start that turned out to be a starter. The second was a battery replacement. Two really easy jobs. Not sure why they took four hours, but they did. Then I tried a third car, but called it after a little while. I had a decent guess as to what was wrong, but I threw up the white flag and referred her out.
Then… I… tried to track down an old employee that still has $1000+ worth of my tools that he’s had for over a year and has… disappeared. I still need to get him the 1099 for last year, etc. No one answered the door in the apartment where he used to be, so not sure there.
Then I ran an errand, worked on weeding the garden area, ate dinner, showered, and now I’m in bed getting ready for bed.
If I haven’t mentioned it before, I have a little pore on my nose that randomly bleeds periodically. It’s always in the same spot. I don’t know what causes it. I always thought it was like a capillary too close to the surface that would burst occasionally?
Anyway, today I found out that’s one way that basal cell carcinomas manifest. So… that’s fun. There’s not really anything visible, no discoloration, no…. anything. It just bleeds periodically, but I have enough moles on my body, I’d probably better just do a screening anyway. Been a handful of years since my last one.
I don’t fast anymore because of my health issues when going without food and water. But I’m going to fast tomorrow. I’ve got so much on my mind, and I need all the help I can get right now. Perhaps it’ll help me focus and reset a little. And maybe somebody out there in the universe can lend a hand to this little guy here on planet earth who’s struggling to make his way.
#1. I’m grateful that rain held off just enough that I didn’t get completely soaked doing the starter job on that Taurus today.
#2. I’m grateful I was able to make some pretty good, pretty quick progress on the garden weeding.
#3. I’m grateful to have made it through Friday night and Saturday night clean and free from porn crap. I was triggered both yesterday and today, but I had the strength to reach out, and I’ve managed to stay clean. Victory. I’ll take it.
#4. I’m grateful for the general health I enjoy. Had a quadriplegic customer today.
#5. I’m grateful to face the challenges I face. I’ve been beaten down quite a bit by the current one. It’s been the hardest of my life and is ongoing still, but I’m grateful for the challenges nonetheless.
Hope y’all have a beautiful weekend.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
Lift the World 