Hola folks! Didn’t get to bed until after 12:30 a.m., so it wasn’t even 4 hours of sleep by 4:25, but guess what? I still got up!!! Wahoo! 🙂 I think that’s 6 days in a row now? Yee haw!!!
(nevermind that I went back to bed at 7 ish and slept until 10ish)
I finally actually worked again today. I didn’t do the huge job I was supposed to do. The first three jobs took too long. Hopefully, they’re ok. They didn’t respond when I still offered to come tonight even though it was getting late. Who knows. The first car was a no start. No crank. It had a couple of issues, but they both resolved themselves on their own while I was working on them, and I couldn’t reproduce them after a little while, so I showed the owner how to bypass the problems and start the car if it gave further issues.
Second car was…. oh yeah, radiator job. Third was another no start, and it was a drained battery. They have some kind of a draw, but it never shows when I’m there, so I can’t diagnose it for them. They have an aftermarket alarm that a company messed with, so I’d guess the problem is there, but with no evidence of a draw… what do you do?
After midnight again. was in the middle of a long important convo with a friend.
Have had lots of triggers today (sex addiction stuff). Still clean, but just getting it out there.
#1. I’m grateful the week is over. 🙂
#2. I’m grateful to have been able to get at least some work done today.
#3. I’m grateful to my mother for helping me with my tax assessment stuff. Progress is being made. Has to be done next week. Need/want to get my van assessed, so I can get it registered and titled.
#4. I’m grateful for the mouse trap. No, I don’t want to kill anything, but I have had a mouse or mice actively living in my truck, I think. Smell of mouse pee. Little turds. Chewed through stuff. Eaten food (have never had anything take food out of my vehicles before. Think the mice made it a home while it was parked in the back, and they just… stayed there and enjoyed the fact that I brought in food to the home they’d built. Had to use a mouse trap. Got one this morning. Maybe I can find a more humane one… one that just catches them…. then maybe I can let them go down by the creek or something. I don’t know.
#5. I’m grateful for showers. I’ve lived in my car before, and yes, part of me does miss showering in the waterfall I built up Provo Canyon in Utah…. but it’s also nice to just have a shower I don’t have to drive to, and one that allows me to choose hot showers if I want them instead of snow melt all the time.
Daily Accountability…
The positive
- Was porn free today again. 17 days. (yes, that’s a streak, but… whatever. I’m grateful).
- Got up at my magic 4:25 time, even on super low sleep! 6 days in a row now. (okay, I admit, I like streaks). 🙃
- In the middle of a challenging conversation where I’d let myself/chosen to get frustrated/exasperated, I was able to do a hard shift and move out of that into positivity. And that… was really cool. The rest of the conversation was beautiful because she let go and I did too. It was beautiful.
- I did my servicise this morning, as well as multiple others of my morning dailies. 🙂
The Not So Positive
- I did say yes to a job I shouldn’t have today. I was already slammed, but he was on the way, and it only took an hour. Still… I should have said no. Kind of glad I went, though. Young guy… maybe early 20s. He’d just had a stroke yesterday. 😶
- I started to get impatient with the AutoZone peeps. Their new system is terrible (computer system). It’s added extra unneeded steps to so many different things, and it’s making everything take way longer. I feel for the people who have to work there. It really aggravating.
Uh… just got triggered really really badly, and I want to use…. a lot… so…. I’m gonna go take a cold shower.
Sorry, cutting this short.
Prayers / Happy universe thoughts appreciated.
Loves and hugs!
Lift the World.
~ stephen


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