I got myself back into some ruts while I spiraled last week, and it's hard to dig back out. I'm wanting to come home from work and waste my time watching something on a screen. I hate being in that place. Fortunately, I know that if I fight through these tough days, it won't be … Continue reading 2021-06-29 — Breaking a Little More Free

So... my computer is still down, but gratefully, when I hooked up my computer to the big-screen TV that's been sitting in my room unused for who knows how long, I was happy to learn that I'd set my computer to make the second screen the main screen, so my absolutely smashed laptop screen that … Continue reading 2021-06-28 — Bigger Screen

Hi, all. 🙂 I'm... teetering. I felt like I was turning a corner, but apparently it's a long corner. 🙃 I keep trying to get back to doing the things I know bring me peace, but I keep slipping back into the escapes, the running away and avoiding. That said, I'm making some progress on … Continue reading 2021-06-27 — Teetering

Let's do a gratitude day. I could use one of those. 🙂 #1. I'm grateful that though I was severely lacking in sleep (couldn't fall asleep last night and didn't until about 6 a.m. or so, and I needed to get up at 8), I managed a fairly upbeat day nonetheless. Granted, I went down … Continue reading 2021-06-26 — Round 2

Worked too long today. Probably should have stopped after the first car, but I did two more, and the last two took a long time. Didn't get home until about 12:15 a.m. First car was a radiator fan in a 2017 Infiniti QX60. Second was an electrical issue that I couldn't figure out without sound … Continue reading 2021-06-25 — Busy, Busy, Busy

Don't worry, I won't say that today was my half birthday, and I'm now closer to 40 than I am 39. Why would I say that? 🙃 Today was a more positive, upbeat type of good day today, and I'm grateful. I slept in a bit, chose to do only two cars today (a no … Continue reading 2021-06-24 — Half Birthday

Hey, folks, Happy Thursday. 🙂 I'm writing this entry using my cell phone because I dropped my computer last night and shattered my screen. Whoops. I'm glad phones are as capable as they are nowadays. I didn't do much today, but I did get out of the house, and I worked on 3 cars--three quick … Continue reading 2021-06-23 — Out of the House

No real change today. No progress. Just addictions (multiple that are dominating me right now), and lots of... just... stuff. I'm tired. I'm tired of no way out but through. Hope y'all are having better days than I. ~ stephen 

I'm stuck. Struggling. Hiding. Avoiding. Please don't comment today. Don't want to face it. Thanks, though. I know you support me. ~ stephen 

It's been... much of the same today as it was yesterday. I didn't really leave my room at all today except to get food and basically go right back up the stairs to my room. I'm a bit better than yesterday, both physically and emotionally. Interestingly, after taking a whole migraine pill instead of only … Continue reading 2021-06-20 — The Wrestle