Too much work. Not enough mental time off. I’m spent. My soul is drying up.
Need to get both physical and emotional rest. Need to take care of myself.
Dailies are terrible right now. Work is way too much because I’m not saying ‘no’. And that’s all a recipe for disaster.
Can’t remember what my sister says… but she says something about taking care of myself (brain not working, can’t remember her little phrase).
Mental health?
Whatever it is. I need to get me some mental/emotional health rejuvenation.
As far as the day is concerned… up earlier. Picked up my skid steer this morning. First job couldn’t figure out (wasn’t really motivated to either because the engine was hot, and the likely repair was going to be more than I need to be taking on right now, so I didn’t charge him.
Went to the junk yard to get a part. Fortunately, it was there.
Car #2, easy peasy belt replacement on 2003 Tundra (original owner). Car #3, battery replacement 2018 Ford Transit. Car #4, 2015 Dodge Journey no start (starter relay). Car #5, Mercury mountaineer starter replacement (warranty repair). Car #6, 1994 Cadillac, no crank, no start. As best I can tell… starter is bad. Car #7, 1998 Ford, smoking (coolant leak at timing cover, by the looks of it.
Long day. Home. Tired. Filthy. Don’t want to shower. Really filthy, though. Black hands.
#1. Grateful it’s been a dry heat (well… not dry dry, but much drier than the humid nasty.
#2. I’m grateful I was able to figure out stuff today with cars–the Journey I was worried about, the Cadillac (I hope I got the caddy diagnosis right, at least.
#3. I’m grateful that I haven’t gone so far over the edge that I’ve migrained and whatnot. I didn’t do so well today in taking care of my body. Not terrible, but not good. We’ll see how I do with the edge–if it comes or not.
#4. I’m grateful that showers exist and that I have effective soap to clean off the grease.
#5. I’m grateful to have been able to get the skid steer back. Need to get the mini ex tomorrow.
Daily Accountability:
The Positive
- 22 days. Feeling weaker. Summer has arrived, and so have beautiful women wearing little in the way of clothing. That’s a challenge.
- I’m still reaching out here and there with my struggles. That’s something.
The Needs Improvement:
- Bed time
- Morning dailies.
- Overworking myself
- lots and lots and lots
Drowning a bit… Thanks for helping me stay afloat.
Lift the World.
~ stephen
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