2021-07-31 — Goodbye July

Almost 3:30 a.m.

Long day. Almost broke more daily records, almost certainly broke my monthly record. That’s nice.

But it’s not filling my soul, just the bank.

You know, I’m amazed. It appears that all the symptoms I’ve had, all the craziness that I thought was blood sugar issues or some hormone imbalance or something (various guesses at various times)… looks like it was just fasting induced migraines.

There’s no way I should have survived today without being down for the count, totally messed up, way over the edge. Why? Because I’ve pushed myself almost non stop for two weeks, and yesterday I was hammered–hammered.

This morning I was feeling it. Headache starting, but… I took a pill, and I was fine all day. Fine.

I mean, I’m exhausted right now, but it’s also 3:30, and I haven’t been sleeping much and have been putting in 16-hour days for… a while now. Or whatever it’s been.

But I haven’t crashed. Not once… for a good while now. I still don’t know what’s making my body flip out and get all migrainey if I don’t eat for a day. Never used to be an issue.

Weird.

Work van is having some issues, and I don’t know how to fix my own car because I don’t know CNG stuff, and I don’t even know where to learn it. Doesn’t seem to be much out there.

Ready for sleep.

Lift the world.

~ stephen