I want to be the kind of person who just goes out and spends his time lifting the world even when his own world has crashed around him. So... that's what I'm going to choose. I'm likely gonna have a bunch more days like I did yesterday. I've had countless similar ones, so it's likely … Continue reading 2021-09-27 — Trying to Dig Out

Started really slowly today. Don't think I even got to my first job until like... noon. Didn't look like a very good day, but it turned out... okay. Acceptable. Not great at all, but... acceptable. I think I did four cars, home around 7ish. That's three days in a row of being home relatively early.  … Continue reading 2021-09-29 — Goodbye September…

Would it surprise you to read that I think I'm a little burned out? 🙃 I slept in a bit today, and I just dragged today. Part of that is some emotional stuff that's re-popped up that I've got rolling around my noggin, but the day seemed to go quite sideways, and I'm just so … Continue reading 2021-09-28 — Just Tired

Really struggling today. That's an understatement. I look to the heavens, and I just... don't understand. Why this? Why? I sacrificed everything. I followed. I trusted. Why this? I wish I could just completely stop believing that there's a god. That would be so much easier.  So much easier. Then I could be free, free … Continue reading 2021-09-26 — Return of the Sunday Blues

Eyes closing on me. Came home early today, despite lots on the schedule. Came home about 5:30. I'm just completely worn out. After helping clean out the carriage and storage barns early in the a.m., I went out and fixed three cars today--new cruise control switch in a 2018 Hyundai Kona (remove the airbag, steering … Continue reading 2021-09-25 — Home Early

I'm a good bit over the edge physically. Tough day. Started early. Ended late. Filthy dirty. Exhausted. Head not doing so well.  First job was finishing a water pump job for someone who started it but didn't finish. It went fine. Same set up as the one I did just the other day. Second job … Continue reading 2021-09-24 — One More Day ‘Til Sunday

Today the adrenaline or whatever wore off, and I sort of hit the wall. I just... was in slow motion--just tired and burned out. Accordingly, I managed to do a grand total of two cars today before calling it and heading home. Interestingly, though I only did two cars, it was still a long day, … Continue reading 2021-09-23 — Slow Motion

I don't know what to write. Cold morning this morning. 44 degrees. Tired. Long day. Should be in bed, but... I don't want to go to bed. Don't want to get up. Possible new business opportunity. Nephew in law called me today and told me about an opportunity that looks pretty solid. I just have … Continue reading 2021-09-22 — I’m Here

I have eight minutes to have lights out and me in bed by midnight. Gotta get to bed earlier. Midnight would be a pretty darn good improvement from 3 or 2 a.m. I'm wiped out--absolutely wiped. Another very long day. had Thomas ride along with me today. That was good. Helped me hold my tongue … Continue reading 2021-09-21 — Gotta Slow Down

I'm slammed. Early up. Late bed. Jobs pretty much all went sideways, and far sideways. One of those days where it's so bad that you just a pleading with the universe for it to be done, but it just keeps going further and further sideways. I'm just hammered. Hammered. Today feels like Friday or Saturday, like I've … Continue reading 2021-09-20 — Butt Kicked