I’m all over the place–except in bed, which is where I need to be. 🙃
I haven’t been able to get back in the working groove, partly because my body, which was totally fine with me working 90 hours a week for weeks on end while working on cars, hasn’t been able to handle me being sedentary while doing taxes and has seen me going over the edge for seemingly no reason the last few days, even while I only work a handful of hours on cars.
Go figure.
I’ve noticed it before (that being sedentary can seem to precipitate more issues going over the edge). It’s… weird.
So… I haven’t been doing well at all the last two days. Today I only did one house call (two cars). That was it. I postponed everything else and went home because my body was revolting on me.
I tried to take care of myself. Not sure why it didn’t work. I’ve been eating plenty. Weight is doing well. Getting back up to better ranges (170ish), so that’s good. Another 10 to 15 lbs to go (of good weight), and that’ll probably be a good place to hold steady (though I’m healthy at this weight as well, I think… would just like to be a little more capable in strength and endurance, and that’ll mean gaining probably 5-10 pounds of muscle weight.
Speaking of body stuff, I saw a picture of myself from my road trip out to Arkansas from back in April of 2016. I’ve aged soooooo much! I guess the stress will do that to you. Lots of gray hair on the sides now, especially in the beard. Pretty nutty. I saw that picture of myself posing at Hoover Dam, and I was like 😶 “good crap!” Apparently, I still look and sound young for my age, though, because people still call me bud , think I’m in my 20s or early 30s, and talk to me on the phone like I sound like a 20-something. 🙃
Anyway, my mind has been running around in circles today with squirrel strikes every 4.2 seconds out to demoted Pluto and back. Lots of business stuff floating through there, as well as a gazillion other things. My mind is running in a thousand directions, and it won’t stop. I could stay up for hours more without blinking just running through the gajillion things that are going on in this little brain of mine.
Tomorrow is gonna be a loco day working, assuming my body can handle it. I really need a helper. I’ve offered a job to a couple of nephews, but to this point, they’re not biting. So… I might need to look elsewhere. We’ll see. I. really. need. some. help. here. 😬 I have so many things going on. I had hoped to be able to create a business that would provide work to family members, but maybe I won’t be able to accomplish that. Who knows. Maybe they won’t be interested. I don’t think it would take much to be able to build the businesses to a level to sustain multiple families. But there has to be interest.
We’ll see.
I haven’t accomplished almost anything on taxes the last few days. I guess I’m avoiding a little bit. Burned out from the week of doing them. I need to get back to them. Need to make steady progress.
Well… I’m gonna eat a little more and take another migraine pill in the hopes of staving off this wacky health issue.
Love to all. We’ve got this.
~ stephen
p.s. One crappy thing about porn addiction (in addition to the 70,000 other crappy things). Once you go to it, the ads will follow you. You’ll get all the skimpy-dressed women selling everything. Don’t have a clue how long it will take of clean browsing before it change the ads it uses to target me. Maybe I should do a bunch of retirement/AARP type browsing–coffins, prostate health, Alzheimer’s research… maybe my ads will change? 🙃
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