No excuses.
1:42 — Every screen I could find in my room that could access the internet or a movie or whatever has been moved out of my room. There’s one laptop I can’t find. I need to, but it’s not showing itself. I don’t remember where I put it, so… that one’s still out there. Yes, I’ve taken this particular step toward recovery–multiple times–and I’ve never succeeded with it, but that doesn’t mean it won’t help or isn’t worth it. It will. It is. So… here we are again. Bring it on.
2:24 — 5×5 completed. Laundry partially put away. Dishes cleaned, kitchen table cleaned off. Leaves blown out of garage, recyclables put in their bins, garden boxes all covered, fence panels moved. Email cleaned up a little more.
8:47 — I’ve spent much of the day listening to motivational speeches, helping me to get moving. I’ve meditated a bit. I’ve worked a bit on my nonprofit stuff. I’ve reached out to family and loved ones. I’m about to give my phone to my mother for safe keeping through the night, and I’ll be getting up at 5 to exercise and get back on track, back on the path.
Change is coming. My whole life is changing. Including, and i just found this out today, that my living situation will be changing sometime in the next year, so finding a place to live is now on the serious to-do list and not just the peruse/dream list.
And today I chose to move on from a path I’ve been following for well over a decade, a path that has defined and shaped my life to such a degree that it influenced pretty much everything i thought and did. Today i chose to move on. I’m not closing that door completely, but I’m putting that path in a backpack, and I’m walking a new direction. If the time comes to open the pack back up, i will. But for now, I’m following a different path.
I’m not the only person affected by my choice. Please send out prayers/positive universe vibes to the affected. This is not an easy road.
Time for bed. I’m grateful I’m tired. I hope that means I’ll be able to transition somewhat smoothly to the schedule I’ve created.
Love to all!
Lift the World. 🙂
~ stephen
Lift the World 