Another day. Three cars. Been taking it easier. But not getting to bed. Slept 12 hours, but right back at wasting time and going to bed way too late. Way behind with jobs. Lots waiting on me. Struggling. Discouraged. All the way around. How long will I continue to choose this life that I hate … Continue reading 2021-10-22 — Meh

So tired. Falling asleep. One, long sideways job today, but it's done. Must sleep. Gnight! ~ stephen

I'm discouraged today, folks. Really hard to be positive. I want to make a difference for good in this world, but it's hard to feel like I can, honestly. I'm watching what's unfolding everywhere in our country, and I'm just... 😕. I'm sad and discouraged. I don't want to be, but I'm struggling so much … Continue reading 2021-10-21 — Discouraged Rant

Well... my bed time is getting worse... not better. 🙃 Was after 4 last night and it's almost 3:30 already. Did better today physically, though. Go figure. 4 hours of sleep but much better in the over-the-edge stuff? 🤷‍♀️ Long day. But still better? Weird. Just weird. Six cars, five paying. First car was a … Continue reading 2021-10-20 — A Bit Off Track

I'm all over the place--except in bed, which is where I need to be. 🙃 I haven't been able to get back in the working groove, partly because my body, which was totally fine with me working 90 hours a week for weeks on end while working on cars, hasn't been able to handle me … Continue reading 2021-10-19 — Edge Staying Close

I'm... not quite in the swing of things. I went back to work today, but i didn't really accomplish much. I'm zoned out of everything, really. Not quite sure to zero in on my tax work nor on my mechanic stuff. Too much stuff going on in the noggen. Too much of me avoiding stuff. … Continue reading 2021-10-18 — Not Quite the Swing

Hung out with my Hill Family most of the day today. Pre migraining right now. G'night, folks. ~ stephen

Tough day. Only did one job. Couldn't get myself to do the rest. The one job i did went badly sideways. Rest of the day was pretty rough, too. So... I'm here. Just... here. G'night. ~ stephen

It's been a pretty hellish day. I'm miserable, honestly. With tax crap. In life. I survive day to day and try to give a smile and be kind and encouraging, but inside I'm... a mess. Supposed to go back working on cars tomorrow. Really don't want to. Really don't want to. Can't wait to be … Continue reading 2021-10-15 — Back Again

Another day inside my room. Some progress. Torturously slow. Talked to the accountant. She said don't try to make the deadline. Just pay more penalties and keep my sanity. Think my sister Heather said the same thing. Y'all are right. I just want to get this done. Hanging over my head for two years. But... … Continue reading 2021-10-14 — Don’t Worry About It