2021-11-14 — Hell *and* High Water

Today has been really really hard.

I forgot to set my alarm last night. Gratefully, I guess my body is conditioned now to its new routine, and I woke up on my own at 4:11 after waking up, I think, at maybe 3:30.

It’s already late again. 8:59 p.m. So it’ll be another short night’s sleep.

I’m pretty discouraged right now, but that’s okay. I want to find a way to beat the discouragement back and get back to my excitement for life and what I’m trying to do right now.

So I got up, did some, but not all, of my morning routine stuff. Didn’t exercise (gonna take Sundays off of exercise?). I spent a good, long time working on working back my fears to their various cores. Chatted with one of my sisters about her perspective on death (as I process through my own fears regarding death).

I made my third video, and it took something like two hours to upload, so I made it before talking to my sister, and it took like an hour and half after that to upload. 🙃

Worked more on working back my fears. Wrote a message to a friend of mine because I was a little hurt by something, and shared my feelings about it.

Went to dinner at Jim and Steph’s up the hill. Came home and chatted with that friend for a couple hours. That was a hard conversation. And I had another conversation with someone else that was even harder.

It’s… been a tough day. Hell and high water both came a knockin’, and I was really tired most of the day on top of that, even having taken a nap. And now it’s 9:30.

(sigh)

Tough day.

Tough tough day.

We’ll get back up, though.

Lift the World

~ stephen