2021-12-01 — Hello December, Nice to See You.

Howdy, folks! Happy Wednesday to you and you and you. 😊

I realized at some point this morning, that nothing on my list was promised for today, so I… took the day off! 😁

Wahoo!

I didn’t really do much today with all that time off. I gathered up all the metal form the rather large metal pile I’d made in the woods, and I took two trips to the recycling place with it. Netted $150, so that was something. 🙂

Gosh… I can’t remember what I did today. 🙃

I made a new friend and we chatted quite a bit today, fun conversation. I also said goodbye to a dear friend, and that was hard. My heart is heavy with the latter experience, and I’m struggling a bit in relation.

But I’m going to just keep going forward. Wallowing is selfish, and selfishness takes away from the good I can give to the world, so I’m not gonna choose selfishness. There’s plenty of beauty to focus on, so I’ll fix my attention on that. Back to that horizon and where I’m going.

I know it will be hard. This experience that weighs on me has been the longest, hardest, and heaviest experience of my life, and as it feels like it’s passing into infinity, it’s hard to feel like there was much value in it. It seems to have done me and others far more harm than good. But I’m in pain right now, and I’ll have a clearer head again sometime. The morning will come. The sun will rise, and with it… endless possibilities.

I have a work to do, and I best get to it. No time to wallow. No time to waste.

Carpe Diem.

Daily Accountability:

• Bed last night at 8:30: 9, I think.
• Up at 3:30: 😎
• 5x5s: 👍 full time, but 3/5 (still struggling on the execution, but the total duration is solid)
• Exercise: Uh… I did some? That’s progress. With my hip the way it is, and the garage packed with stuff, I’ve really struggled to find motivation.
• Cold shower: 😎 Yup, freezing stinking cold, but a great opportunity to increase both in mental self discipline and in physical control (I’m probably repeating myself) but when experiencing such a cold shock, the body’s natural response is to hyperventilate. Well, if I focus hard enough, I can control that response. I can keep my body from hyperventilating. It takes focus, not a ton, but deliberate, consistent effort until my body has acclimatized to the cold. Anyway, good practice.
• Meditation: 😎
• Breakfast: 😎
• NP Work:😎
• Tax Work: 😎
• Lunch: 😎
• Work done by 6: No worky today.
• Dinner: 😎
• Only truly healthy foods: I’m getting better and better! Gonna finish up the orange juice that I have and then I won’t get anymore. It’s diluted halfway, but fruit juice is pretty low on the good-for-you list of foods. Better than soda, but… tons of sugar and missing a lot of what the real fruit will give you.
• No Wasted Life: I wasted a bit today, watching some prospecting videos on YouTube. 🙃 With the challenging things I’ve been facing. With my crash the other night, it’s been easier to slip into the avoidance mentality, not wanting to face what I know I need to.
• No Distracted Driving: Some good progress today, I think.
• Faced a Fear: Still struggling on that one when it comes to deliberate planned stuff.
• Tamed the tongue: Tempted, and stayed strong.
• Bag of veggies: Whoops! Do blueberries count? 🙃

Overall, I saw progress in myself today. I had some really hard experiences come up, and I think I pushed forward more quickly and more positively than I’ve done before? Or maybe I just have a really short memory. 🙃 Either way, I was pleased to see myself turn from the woe-is-me mentality with the heavy painful stuff to the eyes-on-the-horizon focus.

My love to you all. 🙂

Momento mori.

Lift the World

~ stephen