Hey, folks.
I’m mostly just present today. It was a bit stressful today having the welder over, knowing I’m forking over $100/hr for him to be here and seeing how painfully slowly it all appears to be going. He worked just over 6 hours today, by my count (unless he took a lunch), and it’s hard to feel like much of anything got done. I hope it did. I really do. Lots of money going into this thing. Hope it’s worth it. Should have just sold it as is and taken the loss, I think. Not sure how I missed that in my decision making. I guess I was more focused on being willing to take my lumps and pay for what needs to be done?
Hopefully all this effort will mean that I or whoever ends up using it in the future will be able to benefit from the Dozer working as needed for a long time to come. We can hope, right? (sigh)
I really don’t feel like much of anything got done today. I’ve been pounding through tax stuff, but today, even though I spent a bunch of time, it doesn’t feel like much got… done. There’s just so much. So much.
😕
I’m also not used to having more money go out than comes in, but that’s certainly where I’m at right now. Been a long time. Not a fun feeling.
I’m a bit discouraged today. Didn’t make any progress on the phonetic stuff. Have a lot that I need to do there for my programming team, and I just dropped the ball today. 😕
Hopefully, I’ll get that turned around tomorrow.
Three cars today. Oil leak in a 2007 Lexus RX350 (from one of the cooler lines that was super old and had a hole in it squirting oil out. Then it was a 2008 Honda Oddysey (or whatever year it was) that needed a battery. Finally, it was a 2009 Toyota Camry that had a super bad oil leak and died while driving. Come to find out, I looked underneath, and the oil filter was… missing. The engine was seized, so it looks like Kwik Kar might need to make a claim on their insurance. I talked to the service writer, and he seemed like they were going to cover it maybe. He was super good to work with.
That was positive for the customer.
It’s late. 9:14. Better than the previous days, but I’m struggling a bit today. I’m lonely. I let myself ruminate on my frustrations with the guy who sold me the dozer, and that’s… not gonna lead to happiness. I’m discouraged that so little seemed to get done on the dozer for so much work. Worried I’m wasting thousands of more dollars, and now I’m leaving mechanics and have no income to hold onto. I’m reminded of how I didn’t really have much to offer in the way of marketable work history to prospective employers when I moved out to Arkansas, and it took a long time to build my company up to where it is now where it provides me a good living.
I’m staring at that reality again… I have assets this time, and opportunities, but I’ve managed to let myself get so disillusioned with people’s willingness to work and the quality of their work and people’s willingness to take care of things (my heavy equipment for example), that I find myself afraid of hiring people and trusting my stuff to anyone but me. 😕
So I have all this equipment but don’t trust anyone but me to use it, and that’s… not going to get me anywhere. The whole point is to get out of this kind of labor world.
(sigh)
I’m finding myself turning to my escapes.
Gonna be a really busy work day tomorrow. So much to do… so much to do.
~ stephen
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