I’m tired. I probably could have gone to bed hours ago and fallen asleep just fine. As it stands, it’ll be about midnight before I tuck myself in bed for the night.
Why am I tired? I think it’s just this long, long, long push to get free of all the chains I bound myself with having run the business the way I did (busting my butt all the freaking time for so long that doing the needed regular maintenance on the business didn’t get done, and so I’m still pushing three years of back maintenance that should have been done along the way).
It’s going fine, honestly. I’m just… tired. 🙃 I’ve now sent messages to all of the people that I accidentally overcharged for one reason or another (mostly because I had incorrect sales tax jurisdictions at the time the invoices were created, but also because my employees charged the wrong prices at times, sort of rounding up to easy numbers instead of the correct sales tax numbers they should have done.
I’m still making good progress, and I’m glad to have the major stuff done with–the legal stuff that applies to the last three years. I definitely feel more free, but I also still feel some of the chains still binding. There’s plenty more to do, but like I mentioned yesterday, I’m steadily chipping away; and it won’t be long, actually, before I’m completely free of all the cleanup I have to do. I could potentially be completely done by the end of this week, if I hold my nose and push to get it done.
That’s when the real test begins. Do I actually have the courage to follow through on what I’m preparing to do? Will I leave the successful auto repair business I’ve built to do something that means more to my heart and soul?
The answer is that of course I will. But neither am I naively thinking it’ll be easy. I know it won’t. Having enough money coming in that I can live without much of any concern about bills and whatnot… I’ve been blessed to be in that situation for many years. I’m very grateful for it. But I know that the moment I shift away, there might not be any income, which means all will be outflow. That’s a little scary, but Making a difference for humanity is worth it.
Anyway, good day. Making progress on business mess cleanup. Making a little progress on cleaning house (going through my stuff an downsizing. I don’t actually own that much stuff, honestly. I mean, I have these huge pieces of equipment, but I don’t own all that much stuff stuff. As far as furniture, I have a bed. The end. Oh… I have a piano bench. I’ve got a few shelves of books I don’t read and likely never will. I just like books. I have some music equipment–a couple of guitars, an amp, a keyboard… But most of the stuff I have that takes up space that’s stuff is memory stuff–binders full of pictures and other memory triggers.
One day I’ll get all that organized, too–maybe.
I’m rambling.
Moving forward, folks. I’m moving forward. Come this time next Sunday, it’s my goal to have all my business paperwork-type cleanup stuff done. I’ll still have equipment and cars to deal with, but that’s a whole different arena and one that’s less… involved? I don’t know how to describe the difference. It’s more measurable, I think. It’s harder to know how much I have left when thinking about the bookkeeping cleanup I still need to do.
Anyway, good night, folks!
Love to you all.
Lift the World.
Go Ukraine!
~ stephen
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