(guess it didn’t actually post when I published last night)
Rough day, on a lot of fronts. But I’m a live. I’m tired. Brain isn’t working. Life is hard. Got some tax stuff done today. That was good. The state wanted additional documentation for what I submitted a couple months ago. Funny thing is that what they wanted was exactly what I already gave them. I guess they don’t keep the submission details from the forms I fill out online, so I had to resend them all in digital copy for them to inspect.
Goodness.
Lost a fair bit trading this morning. It was uncanny, like not even as good as flipping a coin odds. As soon as I’d take a trade, the exact opposite of what I wanted to happen would happen. Buy, it tanks 90 miles an hour. Sell because I’m worried it’s about to tank/tank more, it goes right back up.
That was… discouraging. Then it was maddening. Then… it was almost funny. I mean… the odds were just… ridiculous.
And Fidelity’s trading platform… is awful. I’m discovering just how terrible it is. It’s almost laughable how ridiculously designed it is. It just… can’t get out of it’s own way, and that’s cost me a pretty penny. There are so many truly simple changes that are pretty much an absolute necessity. I even called customer service today because I figured I must be doing something wrong when trying to execute a particular type of order because the only way I could figure out how to do it was to do two orders, and that’s… just completely illogical when you can do the whole process in one order.
Wish I could create my own trading platform. I’ve got a billion dollar business model right there. I’d make an absolutely killer interface with super simple, immediate executables. There are so many incredibly simple tools that would make trading so much safer for day traders, tools that would let them do what they want to do immediately.
But… that’s not what I want to spend my life doing. Wish I had the money Elon Musk has… I could fund all my little pet projects, hire teams to do the work.
Anyway, so it’s almost midnight. I haven’t really left my room almost at all today. Pretty hefty rains storm washed out the work day, and the tax stuff needed to get done, so I did that.
And I’m lonely, really lonely.
But I want to be the kind of person who’s will to live is to do good for others, regardless of whether or not he’s got a companion to share the journey with. So… I’ll keep trying to do good and to lift the world, and just maybe I’ll find someone… someday.
Lift the World
~ stephen
Lift the World 