I’m a bit discouraged today. A couple of friends of mine thinks it’s lack of sleep, but I don’t know. My fuse has been really short lately–mad so easily.
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Lack of sleep?
I have so little ability to have perspective right now. I notice my brain not working as well as it used to. I notice that I’m unable to stay fully aware of what’s going in my surroundings now. Three times over the last month, I’ve lost track of the fact that I am on the phone with someone and just start talking to myself or something. The worst was with a driver who was being… difficulty, and my brain just forgot I was on the phone, and I was frustrated, and made a frustrated comment about the driver. Then my heart dropped. I realized I was still on the phone.
That type of forgetting has happened… yeah, like three times in the last month.
Maybe it’s just age. My body is getting hurt and not healing. My memory is… falling apart. I’m… concerned, honestly.
Frustrating day in some ways workwise. Discouraging reaction wise.
Tired.
Malaki did the first job on his own (well, with me guiding him to the diagnosis, but just with a few simple texts, and he did the rest of the job). The second car was also one he was going to do on his own. It was a sound diagnosis, but he wasn’t able to diagnose it, largely because he didn’t have a stethoscope and also because he didn’t jack up the car to get closer to the sound. He could have figured it out without the stethoscope, but it would have been a tad bit harder. So that diagnosis took about 4 hours when it should have taken 15 minutes. On the bright side, Malaki realized the sound was coming from the center of the engine. The crazy thing was that the sound was getting so much worse only when the AC was turned on. With my stethoscope on the AC compressor it got super loud as soon as the AC was turned on. That seemed pretty conclusive to me, but Malaki was concerned with another sound. At first, I thought it was two different sounds, but then I realized, the sound was just so loud that it made it sound like the AC compressor was also bad.
Nope. Just a cracked flex plate. Poor peeps. Cheaper than they feared but still expensive. Have to pull the tranny out.
Next car was a brake and rotor job and plug and wire job. That took a lot longer than it should have. Was supposed to do a pre-purchase inspection after that, but we were so late that I lost that job. Then the actual last job ended up not going through because I couldn’t get the spark plugs out with some pretty hefty effort, and I didn’t want to force them. So… I just called it. The truck has a tick, and he wanted a compression test done. He wouldn’t take no for an answer, even though I don’t think he needs a compression test.
Anyway, I’m home. I’m tired. I’m a bit down. Not really down, just a tad. Disappointed in myself today and my short fuse. Not sure why it’s bothering me more today than other days. Just is.
Thanks, again, to my friend Cory for helping me past the grocery store today without buying candy. It was funny, offered Malaki $500 to quit vaping and quite tobacco, and he did it! 🥳🙂🥳 He’s been free of everything for… a couple days now–longer for vape stuff. Funny because in the middle of messaging Malaki about his quitting, I realized the pull to sugar I was having.
I gotta get myself figured out, too. 🙃
Time to sleep.
- I’m grateful that we were able to get the plug wires figured out on the plug/wire/pads/rotors job.
- I’m grateful to have chosen to not try and force those spark plugs on the last job.
- I’m grateful…
having a hard time thinking of things I’m grateful for today.
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3… I’m grateful for… uh… that no one stole anything last night.
4. I’m grateful for… ugh… this is hard today. I’m grateful to not have a migraine right now.
5. I’m grateful I had water with me today.
Love and hugs.
Lift the World
~ stephen
Lift the World 