I was talking to my mom yesterday about how much weight I’d lost, and she asked how much I actually weighed. I hadn’t actually stood on the scale in a long time, and being thus unsure, I marched my littler butt upstairs to weigh myself, and what did I find? I… haven’t lost as much weight as I thought. I’m 170 lbs. And at just under 5 foot 11 inches, that’s… right about right.
Funny, the next time I looked in the mirror, suddenly I wasn’t as skinny.
It’s that skewed perspective. So easy it is to have your eyes play tricks on you. It must be like those days where, on some of them I look in the mirror, and I think I’m probably attractive to women. On others, I look in the mirror and just sort of… shrink and think I’m not attractive.
What’s the difference? It’s the same face, so much of it must simply be where I’m at emotionally that day. I wonder… I looked in the mirror and saw what seemed like skin and bones. But then I realize I’m 170 lbs, and suddenly my eyes fix themselves. I’ve lost a lot of body fat, but I’m not really that skinny. My mom pointed out something to the effect of “you’re really not too skinny: You still have love handles”, a comment that brought out a laugh from me. She followed that up with something to the effect of “you’re actually really well proportioned right now.”
And… she’s probably right. I’m skinnier than I was when I was binging on candy every day; and I’m probably about 5 lbs lighter than I’d like to be, but I’m not as skinny as I somehow thought I was when I looked in the mirror and went, holy crap! I’d like to be about 175, I think, but 5 lbs of solid weight, not the squishy kind. 🙃
Anyway, it’s almost midnight. Today didn’t go as planned. I tried to put the last coat of paint on my Z4 hood, so that I could start putting clear coat on it, but what happened? Apparently, I bought the cheap rollers, so this time, there were hundreds and hundreds of pieces of roller mixed in with the paint.
🤦♂️
How does anyone in good conscience sell a product that’s literally worthless? It wasn’t that it simply didn’t work: It ruined the paint job. I had to strip the whole bit back off that I had just put on.
Really?!?! What kind of a person creates a product that’s worthless. You can’t be ignorant to that. It takes but a few minutes of testing to realize that it’s garbage.
Lesson learned–don’t buy cheap rollers.
So… I poured gasoline all over the hood, several times, in order to thin the paint and get it, and all the roller leftovers, off my little hood. After probably an hour of frustrating work, my hood was back to where I started with, and I was… done working on it for the day.
How many times is going to take me before I learn to just stop trying to do these kinds of things myself. It’s not worth the time and effort it takes. I don’t like paying people massive amounts of money to paint a hood, but the reality is that it’s gonna likely take me more money’s worth of time to try to do it myself than to have paid someone else to do it, have it done right, and to have just worked on cars to pay for it.
It’s just hard to pay someone $600 to paint a hood, you know?
But reality is reality. Do it myself and lose more than $600 of my own opportunity cost, or just pay someone to do it.
(sigh)
Anyway, I keep trying to do things to save money, but those things often times don’t save money, and nearly always increase the stress load as the number of projects I have on my plate to complete multiplies with each job I take on myself.
What else… did a bunch of business paperwork today. Credit card record stuff. Payment history stuff. Amazon purchase history record keeping.
I mowed a bit more than half of the lawn as well, as it took me like 15 or 20 minutes to get the lawn mower started, and I didn’t really dare turn it off, not knowing how big of an issue it might give me the next time, so… I mowed and mowed until I was ready to call it quits for the day. Originally, I was just trying to get the mower in the garage, as I’d left it in the yard for the last week plus.
Eyes are closing on me.
Had a great conversation with Austin. Worked a tad on the singles app stuff. Time for bed.
Love and hugs. 😊
Lift the World
~ stephen
Lift the World 
Love handles give her something to hold on to 🙂