As surprising as it might be, yesterday was a repeat of Saturday. I was positive and upbeat and unconcerned about all of the many issues in my life that have been weighing me down for so long. Go figure. 🙃 I spent the whole day super busy, mowing the strip of grass by the mailbox … Continue reading 2023-05-28 — Burn Baby, Burn

Holar, folks. 🙂 It's Memorial Day today, but I'm writing about my Saturday. I had a pretty weird experience Saturday morning. As I was driving from my house to the parts supplier, it was like my whole being had been reset. I wasn't stressed about all of the different areas in my life. When I … Continue reading 2023-05-27 — Reset?

So... I actually went out and fixed cars yesterday!!! 🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳🥳 Can you believe it?!?!?! 🙃 It took 4 days of barely existing, and I'm not 100% sure why I woke up yesterday and was able to work. In the past, one day I'll just wake up and feel a bit more energetic and positive. I … Continue reading 2023-05-26 — Upward

Gosh, I'm so out of it and haven't written in so long that I forgot for a moment how I write these things. I guess it's been about a week since I wrote last. It's been a really rough week. One of my hardest, mental health wise. I've been barely functional as a human being, … Continue reading 2023-05-25 — Still Here

Sorry that I haven't been reliable in writing. I'm just not doing well at all. I just keep getting worse and worse mentally and emotionally. I can't really remember what's been going on. I've been trying to work less, but my stress level and discouragement and everything else isn't changing. I'm constantly in a state … Continue reading 2023-05-18 — Discouraged

Today was a bit of deja vu from my nightmare day yesterday. I spent part of the morning continuing to help with getting everything prepared so that Ms Karen from yesterday could get taken care of today. I went and picked up the CV axle bearing and intermediate shaft assembly from the O'Reilly's in Bentonville … Continue reading 2023-05-17 — Rest in Peace, John

Today was just hell, plain and simple. I spent something like 12 hours working on a 2014 Nissan Murano. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate Nissans? Good crap. Anyway, this lady had a leaking CV boot, and I went out there, and after looking at it, I recommended that you not do anything … Continue reading 2023-05-16 — Not My *Worst* Day As A Mechanic, But Close

Gosh, I just keep falling behind... It's the 18th as I write this. I think the 15th was a Monday. Yeah, Monday. I've continued trying to lighten things up because I've been close to the point of complete breakdown. I think it's helping, but I have almost no ability to withstand any adversity whatsoever with … Continue reading 2023-05-15 — A Monday

I'm pretty devastated. I relapsed in my porn addiction, and that hurts a lot. It felt like pretty much the only area of my life that I was making meaningful progress on. And now just doesn't feel like any progress at all. Just the same old stupid cycle. So yeah, I'm pretty devastated right now. … Continue reading 2023-05-14 — Mower Day

My plan was to take most of the day off. I had one job on the schedule. I've been just struggling and needing some breathing room, so I was going to take the day off and do just that one job. But then somebody called you needed help it was nearby that first job, so … Continue reading 2023-05-13 — Not A Quickie