Sunday was a bit of a frantic day, as we were hoping to Get out and be on the road.
I spent several hours trying to figure out ways of packing all the books that we were taking with us into bins That would be stackable. Even though the van has a pretty significant cubic storage area, we were taking quite a bit of stuff with us, and the books would make it nearly impossible for us to take much besides them if I left them in the boxes that they were in, as they were not stackable.
So I worked and worked and worked and got all of the books into bins, and I got the bins loaded into the van, and I got the van pretty well packed.
But there was a problem…
The house was a mess. The garage was a mess. The driveway was a mess. The backyard lawn needed to be mowed still.
It just… Wasn’t going to work out to leave on Sunday and reach our goal of having at least a mostly put together home front when we return from the trip.
We took a break from all of the preparations to go up the hill to Stephanie and Jim’s house to have our monthly family meeting, and that was good. After getting back, however, we made the decision to put off leaving until Monday, so that we could try and plow through as much of the organization and clean up as we could.
Completely worn out, there was some relief in the decision. I kept on working on stuff until after dark, I think, with the intent of reducing the number of things that needed to be done the next day, but I was definitely wiped out. I think I probably vegged out a little bit before crashing, and that was the Saturday.
Two car situations stressing me out. One very nicely cleaned and organized bedroom. A homefront still in massive need of cleanup, and emotionally, I didn’t even want to go on the trip.
I’m just life tired. All of the physical pain is quite draining. All of the emotional pain is a massive weight that I can’t, or at least don’t even want to try to, explain.
But this trip is a good thing to do. And even if I can’t Begin it with the perspective and emotional state that I would like, at least I’m going.
Will take the positives.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 