I spent most of the day removing and replacing most of the boards that I had put on the concrete forms the day before.
There were concerns that maybe the pressure of going over the top of the placement stakes might be pulling the forms out of alignment, and perhaps, that’s why the forms were a tad off level.
So I pulled them back off, and cut each one to fit to go around the placement stakes.
Lots of cutting. Lots of fitting. Lots of screwing back on after having unscrewed nearly everything.
But it’s done.
Had a challenging experience in the evening that threw me for a pretty good loop. I had somebody whom I’ve known my entire life tell me that I’m self-righteous.
Pretty ironic after having posted just yesterday how worried I am that people will see me that way when I talk about what I’m trying to do with my life, the things that I believe, and the choices that I’m making with what I choose to do with my time (for example, the things I’m cutting out and why why I’m cutting them out, etc).
I want to learn how to just accept that there will always be people who are going to think poorly of me no matter what I do, and there’s little, if anything, that I can do about it.
I want to get to that point where my only concern when judged poorly by others is for their well-being, with no worry or concern for myself.
I’m not there yet. 🙃
Anyway, I was pretty hurt and pretty angry, and I headed out to take some alone time to process through stuff.
At first, I drove toward Edgemont, looking for places that I could crash for the night, but then I drove back to Hot Springs because I found a truck stop that was the same company that I think has always been kind to travelers who want to crash overnight. (no sign saying that you’re not allowed to park overnight).
After having been at the truck stop for a while, I realized that one of the vehicles that was in the same lot with me had been there for quite a while and now had its hood open.
I didn’t want to go over and help. 😕
But each time I’d look over, the van was still there with the hood up, so I finally got over myself and swung over to see if they needed help.
The gentleman with his head under the hood said he was good, so I just let him know that I had a lot of tools with me and if he needed extra hands as well, I was there and would be on the side of the truck stop.
It was dark, and I’m sure my van doesn’t scream “this is a good person to accept help from” 😅 Don’t know if that mattered to him at all, but I think about that all the time because of all the sideways looks that I get driving the van. 🙃
So I pulled back around and parked in my little spot, and eventually, he was able to get it going, I guess, because they drove away. 🥳
I find myself afraid to share that little story because I’m worried about being judged as self-righteous…
I guess it’s good practice.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 