Holar, mis lovelies! 🥰
Happy Thoisday! 😁
You know, yesterday, before I started reading all those old things, I had that little internal (but external) voice go, “Do you really want to do this. You know it might be really hard. Do you want to fight off the challenging feelings that will likely start banging down the doors of your heart and mind?”
It’s interesting: It takes a lot more to write it out than it does to actually have the experience. It was one of those times that you sort of feel the message in a moment–the entire sentiment communicated in a split second.
And I guess I made my choice. 😅
It was a hard night, and a briefly challenging early morning, but gratefully, once I got rolling with my morning routine, I was able to get back to feeling pretty good fairly quickly.
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That’s a really big blessing. 🥰
My routine has become a bit more fluid, and I’m noticing things that need to change.
For example, rolling out of bed, and mixing and drinking my pea protein is about all I want to do nutrition wise first thing in the morning. Once I drink the drink, I don’t feel like eating breakfast. So I think I might try eating breakfast without the pea protein first. Then an hour later when it’s time to drink more water, I can just slap in the pea protein.
So I think I’m going to give that a try tomorrow morning.
I’ve also noticed that my attempt to swap my 6×5 from morning to evening has failed miserably.
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Right now I’ve got it set as the last thing to do before I write my journal entry and chat with the The Biggest Cheese.
Guess who has just about zero desire to go clean anything up at the end of the day?
Yep, that would be me. 😅
It’s funny. I love having the 6×5 as part of my morning schedule. I’m all into it and like getting things clean and making progress in other areas that need a little bit of a deep dive.
But come evening, good luck! 🙃
So I’ve got to figure that one out. I want to put it in the morning part of the schedule again, but my morning is already full. I did my best to squeeze it in, but it just… Doesn’t make the priority list for the morning. There’s just not time to do that and all the other things that I feel like are more important for me to be doing in the morning.
So I’m working on that one…
Decent amount of studying today. Physical therapy on my arm. Cross your fingers. I’m slightly hopeful right now that I’m seeing improvement?
I really hope so. I’ve been doing these weird physical therapy exercises that don’t seem like they would help, but I’m not all that familiar with the anatomy, and I’m certainly no expert, so I’m going to keep doing them, and if this potential improvement really turns out to be improvement, then we can throw a party.
It would be great timing, because I had the feeling today like it would be good for me to go back out and fix cars part-time as I transition away.
Interestingly, I’m not dreading it. 😶
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I was just kind of like, yeah, that’s probably going to be a good thing to do, as I haven’t worked in over 2 months, and the bank account… isn’t as happy. 🙃
I actually had a gazillion fabulously useful insights and ideas pop into my head today.
My lovelies, it’s so wonderful to be back here, back in this place where light just seems to be ever increasing–with thoughts and ideas just entering my brain again and again and again all day long! 🥳
Miracles.
Gratitude.
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I’ve been having insights and ideas for my personal studies. I’ve been having ideas for transitioning away from fixing cars to what comes next and ideas for what that might look like. I’m having insights and ideas of how to focus my life going forward in some of the areas that have been the most challenging for me for years now.
I don’t have answers, but I have answers. I don’t know what’s coming, but I know what I’m doing and what I’m not doing.
The magnitude of those promptings/insights in that area of my life, in terms of how much of an impact they will have on my life if I’m successfully able to apply what I’ve learned, is… huge.
I’ve also had insights shooting into my brain for how to more effectively and efficiently become the person I’m trying to become.
It’s just… wonderful. 😊
I’m alive again, my spirit on fire, and the cravings of my soul being filled by what I’m going to say right now is God.
I’m grateful. Very very grateful. 😊
And that’s another blessing! I’ve been able to maintain my focus on gratitude, even in areas that historically I slip away from remembering to be grateful for quite quickly.
So much is changing so quickly.
I still face and fight those little slivers of fear and doubt, but they’re shrinking with each passing day, I think.
I hope, at least. 😊
I’ve marveled at the increase in my patience. I suppose it could just simply be that I haven’t been dealing with very many stressful things likely in my day-to-day work life. I haven’t had to deal with cars being a pain in the butt. I haven’t had to deal with this stress of taking care of a gazillion customers. So maybe it’s just that I’m less stressed right now, but I think there’s a lot more to it.
I think I’m really just being blessed. I feel like my heart is softer and gentler. When I start to feel frustration well up, I’m able to hold it off! The chemicals begin to explode through my body, so I have to deal with that briefly, but I’m able to get myself back to equilibrium so quickly that it’s not even really noticeable that the feelings were even beginning.
I just feel so… grateful. And honestly, I’m a bit in awe.
What else?
My heartburn issues have been way way way better. I don’t think I’ve had any issues at night to speak of since I changed my schedule and stopped eating so much earlier in the day. And I’m barely having any issues at all during the day. Here and there a little bit, but nothing like I was having before.
It’s just amazing. That improvement was actually happening I guess the last couple days of our road trip as well. So I’ve been really blessed for a couple weeks now in the heartburn arena.
My brain is moving so much quicker now. So much quicker. I still feel the fog that I felt for the last maybe 10 or so years, but I think it feels like it’s a bit less right now.
I’m grateful. 😊
I learned how to make my own GIFs today. That was fun. 🙃 Still trying to figure out how to edit the stock ones the phone comes with and have it maintain the movement. So far I’ve only figured out how to edit them as an image but not have it maintained the animation/video ability.
Well, folks, it’s 9:00. I was supposed to be in bed an hour and a half ago because I only got like 4 and 1/2 hours of sleep last night, and I was hoping to get in bed early and get an extra hour or so of sleep tonight to help me catch up, but I ended up redoing the home page on my blog site, updating it to what’s going on currently in my life, and it took a lot longer than I expected it to. Because of course it’s only going to take an hour, right? 🙃
So folks, good night. 😊 My love to all of you.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 