I’m staring at this cell-phone screen wondering what to write.
My mind has been pretty focused all day today on a friend of mine who’s going through a rough time.
“Rough time” is an understatement.
I’ve never been through what my friend is going through right now. I understand parts of it, for sure, but there are parts I’ve never experienced myself and can only imagine.
Agony.
That probably describes it pretty well.
I wouldn’t be surprised if what they are going through is harder than anything I’ve ever gone through myself–a lot harder.
I’m worried about my friend. I know what dark places are like. I also know what it’s like to have the light again. That light makes everything so much more clear. The pain that I’ve felt on and off for much of the last… gosh, nearly 15 years now… When I have the light, and it’s shining brightly, the overwhelming pain and the staggeringly difficult loads to carry… they just… the pains go away and the heavy loads seem to vanish–even when nothing is answered and nothing is “fixed” and nothing is resolved. Somehow, it’s like the spirit of God just comes in and says “It’s okay. Everything’s going to be okay. I’ve got you.” And then you just melt into a little ball of peace and light and love.
I want to do something to help my friend. But what? What would help? What would be best?
I should probably ask what they truly want and need.
Hard to watch people you love go through excruciating things. 😞 The little boy in me just wants to make it all better.
Maybe I could…
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Funny, I’ve been thinking about this so much, that I’ve taken more than 2 hours just to write what I’ve written so far. 😅
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I did my normal morning routine this morning, with a little bit of a difference. For my couples study, studying prayer… I decided to spend most of that study time trying to apply what I’ve been learning in a lengthy chat with Captain Universe.
It was really good. I was actually mostly chatting about my friend who’s having trouble. 🙃
In fact, that was sort of the start of it all this morning. And I spent pretty much the rest of the day thinking about my friend as I did the different things that I did today.
I tried to do some servicise, But it wasn’t really exercise today because I was just going so slowly.
Had my morning study with Mom, breakfast, etc, and then I went down to the deck area by the creek where I spent pretty much the next 7 hours of the day pressure washing the deck, cutting out vines and brush and all sorts of other plants, cutting down a big rotting tree, and clearing a whole bunch of overgrown field.
Lots and lots of work. There’s more stuff to write about that was meaningful today, but… maybe another day.
Lots of thinking while I worked.
What can I do?
I’m gonna keep working on that. In the meantime, a reminder… for all of us.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 