(written on the 27th… I blinked and it’s been almost 10 days. Mental health hasn’t… yeah…)
I don’t remember much of anything about today. I was going to write about the things that actually matter instead of just summarizing my days like I’ve been doing for so long, but clearly, I didn’t get that far.
I did some JustAnswer stuff. I had one poor lady who reached out because she said she was locked inside her car. The reasoning she gave for being locked inside her car was that her power door locks weren’t working.
😶
Um…
She had been locked inside her car for 45 minutes not realizing that she could just manually unlock her door and get out. She had finally been rescued by a friend, but she was afraid to get back in her car because she’d be locked out again.
I let her know that all she needed to do was use the manual door lock, and she could get out, but she was convinced that one didn’t exist in her car, that hers was only controlled by power door locks.
Besides the fact that I think every single car on the face of the planet is required to have door locks that can be unlocked from the inside, I had also owned that same make model and generation myself.
I ended up getting a YouTube video link for her of somebody doing the door panel, and I use that video to show her where her unlock deelie was.
I’m struggling. I’m lonely. I’m overwhelmed all the time. I’ve realized that (if I ever knew how), I’ve lost my ability to enjoy life.
Going out and doing my best to brighten other people’s days and lift the world certainly lifts my spirits to some degree, but then I don’t have that special someone to share it with.
I can only begin to describe how lonely that feels, and how empty even all the good things that I try to do feel.
There’s a lot more that I should write. You really need to make this journaling meaningful again instead of just functional.
…
Oh, I think I remember what I did on Tuesday now. I spent a whole crap ton of time clearing out vines and burning brush and whatnot on the west side of the ramp down to the creek.
Tons and tons and tons and tons of poison ivy everywhere. 😅
And me burning it. 🙃
Lift the World 