Rough day.
I had heartburn most of the night, but being in my van, there was no recliner to get into too ease the suffering by changing the angle of my body. I propped up blankets and pillows as best I could, but it was not the greatest night. Long, very little sleep.
I think maybe I got 4 hours of sleep?
Was very tired today.
Slept way in again. Think it was probably 10 or after
Oh, I forgot to mention night before last, the jump box that I started to do a return on shortly after buying many years ago lasted like 14 hours without even breaking a sweat running my little cigarette lighter fan.
🥳
That was very nice. 😊
My mom came over at some point because I asked her to just be there for moral support while I had to make stupid little decisions. Just trying to help myself stay focused to make the decisions that need to be made. It’s lots of little things that I sort of need to reason through and then make the decision about what to do with x y or z thing.
It’s easier to stay focused, and it’s easier to not melt down when someone else is there. Clearly I melt down anyway plenty, but it’s easier when I’ve got someone else there just present with me.
Yeah, I’m pretty pathetic right now. 😅
Unfortunately, when my mom got there, my brain was basically already useless to the world. I was way over the edge physically. I couldn’t think to make any decisions. We started talking about the kinds of decisions that I needed to make on the grander scale, not the little ones and I just… it’s rough. I’m not well.
My mom suggested that we go talk at her place where it was cool instead of being out in the sun. So we headed over there and talked. I brought over some catch and release mouse traps for her because she’s got a mouse infestation, mice showing up in the kitchen drawers and already starting to eat the food storage in the basement and whatnot.
We talked for a while. I’m just… a mess. I think I cried a fair bit. I honestly don’t remember anymore.
My brain doesn’t work very well anymore.
We chatted, and my mom made sandwiches. After eating, when we got to the point that we always get to where there’s not really anything else to say because there’s not really anything anyone can do for me, we headed out, stopping by the post office on the way back.
I think I worked a little bit trying to get some stuff done on the to-do list, then I went and bought some comfort food, and then I went to bed.
Not well.
😕
On the bright side of things, there were no brown recluses in any of the traps. 🎉
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