(written on the 26th and 27th)
Not much has gone on over the last handful of days for me to feel like it’s worth writing a separate entry for each day.
Monday night, I think I slept something like 14 hours.
😶
Clearly, I needed it, and I was grateful to get the sleep.
What that did, though, is start me on a trajectory of repeating a bad sleep schedule. Since that day, I haven’t been getting to bed until like 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning, and then sleeping in after that. No good. 😅
I’ve been staying in the parking lot of the Planet Fitness in Rogers, and so far, nobody has bothered me. Not sure how long that’s going to last. I haven’t seen any no-overnight-parking signs, but then I didn’t go looking for signs either.
My week has basically been the same everyday. I wake up late. I go to the gym and exercise. I waste time on my cell phone watching TV or movies or whatever. I eat dinner at Wendy’s while working on JustAnswer and tax stuff. I go back to the gym parking lot and watch TV and movies until I crash at like 3:00 or 4:00 in the morning.
Wasted life.
I just… can’t find motivation enough to actually live.
I exist. I’m ashamed of myself.
…
I’m other news, I do enjoy the hydro massage beds at the gym. I wish you got more than 10 minutes at a time with them, but oh well.
I finished Castle, and feel a little lost because I don’t have anything to watch that I’m interested in, and I can’t really face life, and I’m ashamed of wasting my life away in front of my cell phone screen anyway.
I watched three movies after working on tax stuff–Red, Red 2, and Happy Gilmore.
I guess the one bright spot there is that at least with Youtube, I can watch the movies at faster speed.
I wish Amazon Prime allowed you to speed up what you watch.
[sigh]
I wish I were better.
At least I’m getting exercise. That’s… something.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 