It was nice to wake up on the Hill again. 🌄 No stress sleeping through the night worrying about who might interrupt me. 🙃
I started the day by watching some YouTube videos, but more meaningful ones.
I texted back and forth with one of my siblings for a bit about meaningful things.
I felt… better today, the ember turned flickering flame still lit. Something in me has changed… at least enough to be significant.
I was… pensive today. I have a lot of mental and spiritual work to do, but it didn’t seem so impossible today. I actually had a little flame of hope and a small but real bit of energy to dig back in.
I know it’s a very small flame, and there’s a lot of wind to protect it from. I’ve already allowed the wind in a bit, and the flame is already smaller, but I’m gonna try and protect it.
Habits. My habits have been very bad for my mental health. Bad food. Wasting my life in front of my cell phone screen.
Hard habits to break–especially the running away from pain and life via TV and movies and news and sports news, etc, things I don’t want in my life in my ideal personal world. Those media choices I take in don’t square with who I want to be. Little bits of me go numb each time I partake of those things–well, anything that runs contrary to the deepest desires of my heart.
I spent most of the day just thinking and working on beautifying the area down by the creek–specifically, shoveling away the massive amount of dirt that covered the rock shelf on the spring side of the shelf.
I also started a fire and burned tree leftovers and whatnot.
Lots of burning.
I got yesterday’s post written as well.
Maybe I’ll be able to get back in the journal habit where I actually write every day.
🤞
Currently, I’m at the Rogers Planet Fitness climbing the stair machine. Today is 40 minutes at speed #5 (top speed is 25. Can only imagine how crazy fast that must be.)
I started at 35 minutes, moving up one minute each day. Once I complete 45 minutes at speed 5, I’ll go back to 35 minutes and bump up to speed 6.
…
Ok, workout done. Sitting in the hydro massage chair. 😁
Mmmmmm… 😊
Skipped legs today (though I did do the stair stepper machine for 40 minutes, so that’s a pretty decent life worked out), but I didn’t want to do a regular light workout right before going to bed.
Anyway… That’s the day. I’m at the Rogers Planet fitness, and I don’t have a known local place to go to park for the night, so I’m just going to drive around and see what I can find. 🙃
🤞
I’m grateful
- For this change within me.
- For the opportunity to be able to spend some time in the outdoors down by the creek being at least somewhat productive. I hope I’m doing stuff that others will enjoy in the future.
- I’m grateful that Rover just keeps on working.
- I’m grateful that I was able to get this entry written, as well as three or four questions answered with JustAnswer while working out at the gym.
- I’m grateful that I was able to count cell phone reception down by the creek. With no leaves on the trees, the cell reception is much better.
- I’m grateful that I’ve been better today at living according to my own ideals.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 