(written on the 9th from notes taken previously)
Spent a good little while doing JustAnswer work while beautifying the creek area. My output (with JustAnswer in January was absolutely atrocious after being rocked emotionally from losing all that money trading.
Compounding negative effects. 😕
But I’m trying to get back at it, want to get back what I lost.
It’s amazing to me to think how much money I’ve lost…
I’ve lost over $30k day trading. I lost something like $10k+ on the bulldozer debacle. I think I lost somewhere around $10-15k trying to do the tree business.
On and on…
If I had that money back and just had it in the bank earning interest, it would be probably a $70,000 swing. 😅
Live and learn…
Or if you’re me, maybe you don’t learn.
😕
I live my life in a perpetual state of overwhelm and emotional exhaustion. I don’t have real energy to give to anything, so all my efforts are weak hail Mary’s, so to speak, I don’t have the energy to actually try, so I roll the dice again hoping to win the gambles.
Lots of burning of dead wood.
Another visit to the neighborhood market later in the day. That’s one of my hangout spots, just sitting in my van on my bed wasting my life in front of my cell phone.
Back to the Hill for bed.
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 