(written on the 9th from notes taken previously)
Didn’t get much sleep last night. Didn’t go to the gym yesterday. Gonna lose my habit if I don’t get my butt moving again.
More beautification of the creek area and burning of dead wood.
More JustAnswer work. It’s my goal to make this month my best month ever, income wise, with JustAnswer.
Though I’ve been frustrated because I don’t feel like I’m getting much help with the work on the hill (to be fair, much of the family on the hill is swamped and overwhelmed like I am), and though I’ve been waiting for someone else to burn the wood pile that’s been sitting in the upper pond area ready to be burned for many many months now, I finally broke down and just did it myself.
So I want more help on the property, I also have to recognize that I have the most flexible of all the schedules of everyone on the hill. I don’t have a wife or kids. I work from wherever I want to work, whenever I want to work, so I am the one who has the time and the flexibility.
And I do enjoy lighting bonfires and cleaning up the woods and making things look better. 🙃
So I answered JustAnswer questions while tending a massive bonfire in the pit that we call the upper pond. The fire was super hot, and in order to get close enough to properly take care of it, I roasted my legs pretty good. 😅
Basically like a sunburn, all bright red and super warm to the touch. Unlike sunburns, though, these heat burns from the fire seem to lose their redness after a couple hours, or so.
I stayed tending the massive fire until after dark, when I left the remains (still quite huge) stacked probably 20 ft long and 5 ft wide with large mounds of embers pushed up against the tree leftovers, in the hopes that it would all burn down to basically nothing overnight.
From there, gratefully, I got my little butt back to the gym–chest day (though I only did one machine, three sets of 10, no cardio).
Well, not so little butt.
Apparently there are no Emojis for fat butts or larger people. I guess the world is too PC for that. 🙃
It’s been harder for me to maintain any sort of discipline lately. I used to be so good at narrowing my focus and going full bore and disciplining myself to do what needed to be done.
Well, unfortunately, comfort food is one of the few things I have left that “feels good.”
I don’t find enjoyment or satisfaction or meaning anymore in just about anything, so these vices, pornography addiction… comfort food. Both outlets that “feel good” that actually destroy my self respect.
Got a shower after working out. 🚿🫧🧼
When I left the gym, I noticed that though the Walmart Supercenter in Rogers has signs in the parking lot that there’s no overnight parking, the parking lot adjacent to the Walmart parking lot, the one that is between the Walmart gas station and the Chinese restaurant doesn’t have any such signs, and semi trucks park there overnight, and so do other #vanlife people.
So… I drove my big butt over there and settled down for the night. I’m hopeful this might be a place I can return to again and again I’d like to find a rotation. 😊
Lift the world.
~ stephen
Lift the World 