Kind of a meh day.
And now that I think about it, I didn’t fill my ears with uplifting things all day like I usually do.
First thing in the morning, I had uplifting things I was listening to, and I was just beaming and happy, but then… I got started with work before I’d even chatted with the Big Guy… and now that I’m thinking about it, I never actually did chat with the Big Guy today.
I just worked and went back over old experiences–but not really in a useful way, more of a… melancholy, wishful thinking way.
Not the best recipe for peace and happiness. 🙃
Fortunately, I’ve felt the longing a couple times this evening to have a good heartfelt conversation with the Heavenly Father, and fortunately, I can do that whenever I want. 🙏
Had a little conversation with my mom and a little conversation with Cory, thinking about revelation and their thoughts on how to understand prophecy–conditional vs certain.
Cory suggested that maybe I was being a little distracted away from my main purpose for going back through everything, which was to pull out all the bits (big and small) of direction God’s given me over the years, as I’ve had no shortage of that, and to focus on the guidance I’ve already been given.
I think it might have been an inspired suggestion. Certainly, I think it’s good for me to learn more about prophecy, and how it works, and what it all means, but I don’t need to go through all things that heavenly father has told me over the years trying to glean absolutely everything I can possibly glean on a single pass-through. I have a focus for this pass through, and I think it will be of benefit to me to just leave it at that Focus for now; and if and when the time comes for me to change the focus in the future, then I can have a different focus in the future.
Maybe I shouldn’t admit that it was after that conversation that I spent so much time going back through and doing the more melancholic reading of old experiences and whatnot. 🙃
But we try to keep things pretty transparent around here, as long as it’s not shining too much light on things that should remain private for others’ sake.
Anyway, so I didn’t really get anything done on the homefront today. I brought the horses out of their pasture after they’d munched for a couple of hours, and then later in the afternoon, I took the horses out one at a time to eat the grass on the little strip of grass between the turnaround and the horse area.
First I took river, and then I took fiona, and then I tried taking them both at the same time, which resulted in lots of horse confusion, and lots of awkward moments trying to move past one another, and River stepping on my foot.
Horses are heavy. 🙃
Fortunately, no major damage done. 🙏
Though had there been, it would just be an uncomfortable blessing, right? 🤓
Chatted with Heather and Hans a bit when they got home from work, answered a few more questions online… chatted with Heather some more and took a walk around the pasture with her, and now I’m writing in my journal. 😊
And yes just after 9:00! 😶
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Gratitude:
- I’m grateful to have that longing for that close communion with my Heavenly Father. I’m grateful to miss it when I don’t have it.
- I’m grateful for the suggestion from Cory, as I think that’s going to help me not get distracted away from my more important purpose.
- I’m grateful that life is much more simple for me now than it was only a few months ago. I like having less stuff to think about and worry about. I still have stuff to get rid of in Arkansas. Each time I think about Arkansas, it’s feeling less and less like home. I wonder where home is going to be? Maybe it’s just going to be in Rover. 😊 And I will… Rover around. 🙃
- I’m grateful for the little insight that I forgot to write about yesterday, or the little thoughts that I had with the book that I’m getting ready to start writing again. I think maybe it’s going to take on a little bit different of a form than I thought it might? And I don’t know if I’m ever really going to try and share it with a lot of people. Maybe just a few select people.
- I’m grateful to have been able to answer at least a decent number of questions today. Hopefully it’s enough to stave off demotion this week. 🙃 But if not, I’m not going to worry about it. God is in charge, and can comfortably say that I’m giving a worthy effort, so it’s all good.
Success:
- I’m going to count the longing for time with God as a success today. I’m happy to see myself long for that relationship connection.
Improvement:
- Definitely, definitely had my priorities mixed up this morning by starting to take questions earlier than I should have. I wasn’t able to give the attention that I wanted to my relationship with Heavenly Father, nor was I able to give the attention that I wanted to my gospel study. When questions would pop up, they became the priority. That’s not what brings me peace and happiness. That’s not what brings me peace and happiness.
Thought of the Day:
“Good timber does not grow with ease:
The stronger wind, the stronger trees;
The further sky, the greater length;
The more the storm, the more the strength.
By sun and cold, by rain and snow,
In trees and men good timbers grow.”
~ Douglas Malloch
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Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
Lift the World 