I’m fighting off a heavy dark cloud right now.
It was a super-productive day today, so… a day full of many of the more comfortable blessings… the easy to receive ones, but I’m… still feeling down and heavy.
Best morning routine I’ve had since I’ve been making concentrated efforts again in that area. Decent gospel study. New scriptures to memorize recorded and uploaded to my memorization folders.
Did my 5x5s. I even spent well over my allotted hour working on my book! (I actually probably spent more like 2-3 hours on it? Just guessing)
I sent maybe about 70% of my checking account to state and federal governments in estimated tax payments because I forgot I have to do that again since I don’t have an active accountant filing stuff for me. 😅
Good thing my deposit for June’s online work will post in a few days. 🙏
Man, I crossed off multiple important things off the list, some that have been niggling for a while, but… still heavy.
Missing my friend Brittani. Haven’t talked to her in… well, it’s been years… again. After not being in contact for almost years, we reconnected 5 years ago today. (I don’t think that’s the cause of the dark cloud, though), and now it’s been years again.
…
Hoping to get my butt in bed and sleeping earlier tonight. It’s 9:05, and we just ate dinner and are about to do some Come Follow Me stuff together.
Gratitude:
- I’m grateful to have gotten my tax stuff paid. When I remembered about that, it’s been a bit of a stress since then, but I just hadn’t gotten around to it. Just one of those things on the list that just stays on the list but needs to get taken care of. Now it’s taken care of.
- I’m grateful to have made a little bit of progress on book stuff. I think this book is something like 15 years in the making. 🙃
- I’m grateful to have the heads up reminder that when the clouds are dark, I’m more vulnerable, so I need to make sure It’s lights out for me as soon as I finish this post.
- I’m grateful for my little 12 volt fan that’s blowing right on me, powered by my power station. It’s hot and humid right now.. Might as well be Arkansas. 😅
- I’m grateful that I got some more scriptures recorded to memorize–three from Job.
- I’m grateful we had a sort of Family Study tonight doing Come Follow Me together, as opposed to separately.
- I’m grateful that I’ve been doing well and getting back into the habit of writing every night before bed. 🎉
Success:
- I didn’t let it get to be when I found out I was going to bed to pay property tax for 2025 because I didn’t get all my stuff out of the state by May 31st.
Improvement:
- I think what’s gotten to me today is a couple of situations where my moral sensitivity is being triggered, and I don’t know how to handle the situations in ways I’m comfortable or confident? So… I can definitely improve there, and I think that would keep me from this particular dark cloud.
Thought of the Day:
“Though He slay me, yet will I trust in Him…”
Job 13:15
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Should I go to New Zealand? One way ticket from Rapid City is $466 right now. 🙃
I just… don’t have anyone to do with. Traveling alone… isn’t very fun without someone to share it with. 😞
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Hand of God In My Life Today:
Ummm… 😅. I’ve been in a cloud. 😕 But! I’m clean and sober, and honestly, there’s a bit of a miracle going in with that right now–definitely the hand of the Lord, as far as I’m concerned.
All my love. 💚
Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
Lift the World 