(written on the first of August from notes taken previously)
I didn’t get a lot of sleep last night. I spent a bunch of time doing New Zealand research and what not.
I was also a lot more vulnerable to relapse last night because one of the visitors to the springs yesterday was wearing a bikini was… not unattractive.
(sorry grammarian 🙃)
Gratefully, I’m still sober, and the natural triggers that were quite present physiologically and mentally hand passed. 🙏
Was nice to have Zora come by and wish me a good morning. 😊 She does that on a very regular basis. When she’s let outside to go to the bathroom in the morning, she wanders over to my van to see if the doors are open and I’m awake. Wonderful puppy. 🥰
I got up to see Heather off for the day, and then ate breakfast, dragged the trash can over to the normal spot, and grabbed some kitchen trash and the Big John bag out of the horse trailer and made room in the trash can for them.
(garbage day today).
Took out Little John as well.
Take that pootastrophy! 😎
🙃
Spent a good little while talking to my brother Richard, mucked out the horse barn, put on one of the horse’s horse booties (discourages flies from bothering the horse’s ankles), and spent a good bit of time cleaning up my junk that was everywhere.
I dragged all the wood stuffs into the horse trailer which is what Heather and Hans used to take stuff to the dump. Made piles of trash and stuffed as much as I possibly could in the trash can.
When the garbage guy came, I asked if he wouldn’t mind if I dumped a little bit more for him to empty immediately, and he let me do that. I didn’t put a whole lot in, just maybe a quarter or a third of a trash can worth, but still, it was nice to be able to get rid of that extra bit.
I spent some time trying to fix the tiller to make it easier to loosen up the soil that got so compacted from the heavy equipment by the septic drain field.
I bought a new carburetor for it, new spark plug, new fuel lines, new fuel filter, etc. cleaned out the fuel tank, replaced the carburetor and the spark plug and the fuel filter in the fuel lines, and I was able to get her to fire up.
Unfortunately, it wouldn’t run strongly enough to turn the actual tiller blades themselves. It would idle, and I could get it to run a little bit faster than idle, but it just wouldn’t turn the tiller blades fast enough to do anything. They would just slowly turn but wouldn’t actually dig into the ground.
😕
Ate some lunch, worked a little bit more on the tiller before giving up, did some more solar panel research to try and figure out what I wanted to do…
Chatted with Hans briefly after he got home, and waited for Heather to get home before heading out to go to Wyoming for Temple Tuesday.
Heather made me a nice Bean smoothie for the road, and I headed out, stopping first at JH Keith Park to take a bath. Gratefully, again, I was alone there.
I spent a little while working on the little spring area that I had started working on yesterday, and then I took my bath and then headed out.
The drive went a little slower. I haven’t been prioritizing the things that are of most Worth to me in the ways that I feel like is best, and I’ve been paying the price. I’m not feeling very close to the spirit or strong spiritually at all right now.
Which makes the fact that I’m still clean and sober all the more… humbling.
Spend some time thinking and praying, and a little bit of time working before stopping at my normal place, the last parking stop before Casper.
Gratitude:
- I’m grateful I was able to get the tiller running. Hopefully it won’t be too much of an issue getting it to actually work from here.
- I’m grateful that I was able to be alone at the park, so it wasn’t as difficult to take a quick bath.
- I’m grateful to have been able to fight through the doldrums and drive to Wyoming for Temple Tuesday.
- I’m grateful for canine companionship. 😊
- And I’m very grateful the garbage truck driver was willing to let me add something quickly to the garbage can and then to dump it immediately again. 🙏
Success:
- If I don’t really feel like I got a lot done today, and though I feel like my priorities are pretty messed up right now, I’m glad that I’m at least choosing to make the long slash expensive drive to Casper. That’s at least something that I feel like I’m succeeding at right now.
Improvement:
- Put first things first. I’m really struggling with that.
Thought of the Day:
When we put God first, all other things fall into their proper place or drop out of our lives. Our love of the Lord will govern the claims of our affection, the demands on our time, the interests we pursue, and the order of our priorities.
~ President Ezra Taft Benson
Hand of God In My Life Today:
Clean and sober. Thank you, Lord. 🙏
Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
Lift the World 