(written on August 2nd from notes taken yesterday)
Another day today… fairly doldrumy again. 😕
Got up to see Heather off for the work day, try to do some good morning routine work, and started working a little bit.
After messing around with the Jetta a little bit, working on brake stuff, we needed parts that were back up in Rapid City.
It didn’t make much sense for Hans to drive up there and lose opportunity to work on the house, so I headed up in the Jetta to run to a couple of different parts stores to try and grab parts to hopefully fix the Jetta.
Once again, I did a little bit of working along the way, fighting that battle between fear and honor and… oftentimes losing.
Gosh, why can’t I just be true to my own values?
Anyway, grabbed an emergency brake cable from AutoZone and then a brake hose from O’Reilly’s.
More work/no work mental battles on the way home, and lots of failure. 😕
I haven’t been doing very well, and I’m getting worse. 😕
Stopped off at Bomgaars to pick up some stuff for Hans for the house and whatnot.
Battled with the tractor to get the leaking rusty hydraulic line off but was ultimately successful in less time than it first appeared might be necessary. 🙏
My power strip came today, which means I’ll be able to individually turn off the different appliances and whatnot that I have in Rover, which means I won’t have to reach awkwardly down in the middle of the night when I forget to turn off the power station. Now I can just leave the power station on and cut power to those things that don’t need it during the night.
I think Heather made me a smoothie 🥰
Kept busting my little tuchus on the hydraulic line replacement, finally getting it in with Hans help.
Ate dinner, had a nice little gospel conversation with Heather and Hans, and then I spent a little while trying to catch up on my journal and writing notes for the day
Gratitude:
- I’m grateful we were able to get the brake hose and didn’t have to wait until next week. AutoZone wasn’t going to get it until like Monday or Tuesday, but O’Reilly’s had it in stock, gratefully.
- I’m grateful that though battling to do it the right way, at least I’m trying to work earlier, so I’m not having to cram at the end of the work week.
- I’m grateful that it’s been cooler recently. It’s nice to have cooler days in the middle of the hottest part of the summer.
- I’m grateful to have the desire that I have to do better than I have been, to have that hunger.
- I’m grateful that removing the hydraulic line ended up being less of a nightmare than it looked like it could be.
- I’m grateful that Hans and I together were able to get the stubborn line back in after I had only been able to get one end in and was exhausted from trying to get the other one in by myself.
- I’m grateful for our little gospel conversation. I need and want so many more of those.
Success:
- No four letter words came out while working on the tractor–at least not the colorful ones. 🙃 That probably had something to do with my sister Heather being right there next to me, but I’ll take it either way
- And though I failed over and over and over again, I did at least sincerely ask Heavenly Father for strength to stop. So that’s something.
Improvement:
- I should probably just make the decision and have it just be the way it is that I’m not going to work at all while I drive because I can’t discipline myself to pull over properly if I need to look something up during a phone call.
Thought of the Day:
Trust me, completely.
~ The Big Guy
Hand of God In My Life Today:
Memory is failing me today.
But I am hungry to be true to myself, so… maybe tomorrow I’ll make some decent progress.
Oh wait… I did make some progress today that I totally forgot about! I did make some forward progress in putting eternal things first today. I totally spaced it!
I actively worked on my revelation spreadsheet. 🎉
So that’s… more than just something.
🥳
Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
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