(written on the 30th) Don't really remember much about today. Not doing well at all. Coming to Arkansas... I mean I can't really blame it on coming to Arkansas, but it's like I just reverted back to who I was when I was here before. 😞 Found that not only did one of the five … Continue reading 2025-09-22 (Monday) — Really Struggling

I took a bath, but I've mentally, spiritually, and emotionally begun crashing. I'm reverting back to what I was like when I lived here before. 😕 And after yet another relapse, I just struggled to do anything today. I ended up just wasting my entire day. I didn't go to church. I spent my entire … Continue reading 2025-09-21 (Sunday) — Crashed and Burned

(written on the 30th) Headed from my mom's house where I stayed the night last night over to Miguel's shop to meet the young man who was going to buy the wrecked Subaru. I got there early, so I took the time to take pictures of the two motorcycles and the truck that I'm going … Continue reading 2025-09-20 (Saturday) — Profiled 😒

(written on the 29th from notes taken previously) Did some dailies. Started digging in to finally find that gas tank, as I had someone who wanted to get it today. Gratefully, I did eventually find the gas tank simply by giving up on the weed eating and mowing and just making my way through the … Continue reading 2025-09-19 (Friday) — Continued Divestiture, and More Haven Hill Cleanup

(written on the 29th from notes taken previously) I asked Jim if he had a weed eater I could borrow, and he brought one over, and I spent a good little while trying to weed eat the area where the trailers were because somebody wanted the gas tank I was giving away, and I thought … Continue reading 2025-09-18 (Thursday) — Haven Hill Happenings

(written on the 29th from notes taken previously) Rough night last night. Going to the temple was about the only thing holding me together, but I cracked last night. I didn't go to bed... And I relapsed. Badly. 4+ months I had clean. Hard to put the stumble into perspective when I want so badly … Continue reading 2025-09-17 (Wednesday) — Major Slip Up

I've missed two Temple Tuesdays in a row. 🥺 I was banking on being just a hop, skip, and a jump from the temple, but I guess it's closed for yearly maintenance. 😶 And I drove past the Kansas City temple, one of my favorites ever, on a Monday. I guess I could have driven … Continue reading 2025-09-16 (Tuesday) — Broken Habits 😬

(written on the 16th and 17th) Hello, my lovelies! 😊 Amazingly and gratefully, my headphones kept me from hearing the super loud freeway right next to me, which allowed me to sleep at least decently well. 🥳 After using the rest area bathroom, I pointed Rover's nose East and headed off into the sunrise. I … Continue reading 2025-09-15 (Monday) — Back On the Hill

(written on the 15th) Howdy hi, my lovelies. 😊 Woke up relatively sick this morning, so instead of getting dressed for church, I just threw on a long sleeve shirt and some clean sweatpants and hung out in the foyer during sacrament meeting, so as to not get anyone else sick. Spent second hour mostly … Continue reading 2025-09-14 (Sunday) — On The Road Again

(written on the 14th) Alohar! 🙂 Still totally off my game--terrible morning dailies. Terrible gospel study. Not making almost any meaningful effort to connect with The Big Guy. Still... grateful for the strength and support He's giving me, nonetheless. I feel as though I'm being upheld while in the midst of my struggles. My wonderful … Continue reading 2025-09-13 (Saturday) — Little Boy Sick