(written on September 5th. It’s been too long. 😅 I didn’t even take notes. 😬)
Not much that I remember for today. I had plenty of time to get to Cascade Springs, take a bath, and get to church, and yet, somehow, I was late. Again. As always. 😅
I heard somewhere that poor time management (thinking you have all this time when and then having it melt away quicker than you expect) is a symptom of ADD or ADHD or both. I forget exactly.
Had a hard time in elders quorum today. It was kind of like Sunday school last week. I’m used to YouTube videos at 2x and even 3x speed, so that probably doesn’t help when the message delivery is at 0.6 speed, and the discussion leader doesn’t really open anything up for discussion, goes off topic, and spends 90% of the time looking at the same person. 😅
Aaaaaand… of course that perspective of mine comes from a core of selfishness and forgetfulness when what I hope for from myself in the future is gratitude, compassion, empathy, and love, among many other manifested traits.
I’ll get there.
I had a similar reaction in Branch Council when I was asked to be there to talk about service stuff, as my calling is as the Just Serve coordinator for the branch, but then it felt like someone else made a suggestion. They all jumped on it, and I felt like without any input from me, everyone decided what we were going to do for the September Service effort.
By the end of the meeting, I was feeling ignored and a bit indignant, feeling like I was basically there not to give input but to just do what everyone else decided.
At the very end of the meeting, it seemed as though there was room for my ideas and maybe I’d misunderstood some of what all was happening.
Wasn’t a great morning/early afternoon for me in maintaining a compassionate, cheerful, loving disposition. 😅
After church, I spent the whole day at Shaffer Farms (the home front). Hung out with Heather and Hans for a bit. Chatted with my mom for a bit.
I’m still stuck in demotion land. Hard not to resent this company, honestly. I sometimes contemplate gathering all the evidence I can of how despicably they behave (from my perspective), and sharing it with news outlets to get some outside pressure on them to change their, from my perspective, immoral ways.
Maybe one of these days.
Gratitude to My Father:
- I’m grateful that despite being late to church every week, I do make it there in time for the sacrament.
Reflections on Where I Can Improve:
- No need to lose my peace and centeredness over something as simple as what I perceived to be a very less effective elders quorum lesson and a challenging council meeting. As I mentioned above, the hope for the future is understanding, compassion, empathy, love, etc, not the selfishness that was on internal display today.
Thought of the Day:
Selfishness is one of the more common faces of pride. “How everything affects me” is the center of all that matters—self-conceit, self-pity, worldly self-fulfillment, self-gratification, and self-seeking…
Let us choose to be humble. We can do it. I know we can.
~ Ezra Taft Benson
We’ve got this. 💪
Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
Lift the World 