It’s been a good, productive day today, but I let myself slide pretty hard at the end, and I’m not really even sure exactly why… so I’m pretty low right now.
Got up late, around 7:15 ish, I think. Back was unhappy with me, I think probably from carrying the heavy buckets yesterday, so I couldn’t sleep in my normal position. I’ve started being able to sleep a little bit on my left side and not just have it be my right side, but I couldn’t do either last night.
So I tried on my back a bit, and that seemed better than usual, so that was my go-to last night.
Let’s see… did some dailies. Saw Heather off for the morning. Adjusted my morning chat time with the Big Guy because I’m just not getting the conversations that I want the way I have it scheduled in my morning dailies, and then I get caught up in the whirlwind of the day.
Let’s see… cut my hair, cleaned up my van a little, closed an old business account, scheduled my next Temple Tuesday, bought a ticket to Arkansas (which might be on the chopping block now 🙃), did dishes and cleaned up a bit, mucked and dragged, worked on taxes, answered a few work questions, paid my credit card bills, insured my old work van in preparation for getting it sold while in Arkansas, if possible, renewed registration on that van and my truck,m (as they both expire at the end of the month), ordered a replacement extension cord for house stuff here (I bought a 100 ft one, but I’m sending it back and we’re getting a 200ft one).
I’ve felt over the last few days like something isn’t right, either the work party that we’re planning or my part in it, or my going to Arkansas. If I had to guess, I would say something isn’t right with the work party, but I haven’t felt like I had any stewardship there, though I have been helping to organize it, so maybe?
Anyway, I got one of those “no” messages the Big Guy, but I’m not exactly sure to what it refers, so… I was trying to feel it out by buying my ticket to Arkansas and moving forward with what just seemed to make sense, but it seems like my life never makes sense.
Anyway, some things came up, and I’m not sure what path I’m going to be traveling with the work party, Arkansas , etc.
It’s easy for me to get really discouraged when I get those “no” messages. It’s easy in general, because in my life I’ve felt like I’ve gotten many more of them then the positive direction messages (though the New Zealand guidance is quite recent and a pretty huge thing, so… that’s recent experience to the contrary. But these ones, where I’m not quite sure which thing(s) the “no” applies to are hard.
I’m feeling my way.
Hoping to get to bed earlier tonight. Messaged a bunch of family and friends today. Good to connect.
Gratitude to My Father:
- Grateful to have made some progress toward tax prep to try and get 2024 finally in the bag. I’ve got a fair bit left to do, but I at least got started working on it again today.
- Grateful I was able to renew Arkansas registration online.
- Grateful for my mom for going and getting my registration information, braving the weeds and everything out there.
- Grateful there bag of fruit apparently survived but being frozen in my cooler.
- Grateful to have gotten my cooler swapped out, so the new one is in Rover, and the old one is now in the basement ready to be used for work project stuff.
We. Celebrate. Successes!!! 🥳:
- I got myself actually moving today, making decisions, even if apparently they might not have been the best ones.
Reflections on Where I Can Improve:
- Having not been giving much attention to the personal part of my relationship with God, I think that’s what’s made it much harder to be in tune to the messages He’s giving me. I’ve felt uncomfortably distant from the Spirit the last bit, not spending meaningful time on the most meaningful things. I’ve been a passive learner instead of a hungry seeker. And… it makes a massive difference.
Thought of the Day:
When you are [1] living worthily and [2] your choice is consistent with the Savior’s teachings and [3] you need to act, proceed with trust. God will not let you proceed too far without a warning impression if you have made the wrong decision.
~ Richard G. Scott
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That message from Elder Scott hits harder for previous decisions I’ve made than for my current efforts.
Onward.
Lift the world.
Bring it on.
~ stephen
Lift the World 