(written on the 7th from notes taken previously)
After several pretty good days in a row both emotionally and spiritually, after I left the trailer last night and went out to Rover after my absolutely exhausting day, I just… crashed.
I had a super bad relapse in everything. I didn’t get almost any sleep. Rain came early in the morning, so in the wee hours of the morning, I was climbing over my van trying to get a tarp up so that water wouldn’t get in the holes in the fiberglass roof that I should have repaired yesterday but was going to do today because the rain wasn’t supposed to hit until like 4:00.
Tough day to relapse and be the way I am today. I’m just… paralyzed.
I tried to listen to/watch conference a bit. I had wanted to be in a good space for it, but nope.
I was drowning in darkness. 😞
Comprehensive, bad relapse.
Pretty much an entire day wasted. 😞
No finishing the basement walls before the weather.
No fixing my roof before the weather.
All I can see is the reinforcement of my continual failures.
😞
Lift the World 